Fallen Heroes of Operation Iraqi Freedom

Remembering the servicemembers who died in the service of their country.

Air Force Airman 1st Class Antoine J. Holt

20, of Kennesaw, Georgia.
Holt died as a result of injuries sustained when his tent was hit by a mortar round at Balad Air Field, Iraq. He was assigned to the 603rd Air Control Squadron, Aviano Air Base, Italy. Died on April 10, 2004.

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"I worked with Antoine everyday in the 603 ACS when we were deployed in Iraq. It's still unbelievable this many years later. I remember it like it was yesterday and that night still burns in my head. You will not be forgotten!"
David Morel of Las Vegas, NV

"Always thinking of you lil cousin. Love you. ❤"
Marko of Dirty South

"It may be over 16 years later now but Holt you are never forgotten. We all think of you every April, every May, every holiday, and whenever we feel like life is rough. You have changed us all forever but your legacy lives in us forever."
Anonymous of San Antonio TX

"Someone I love very much loves and misses you every day. He will never forget you. God rest your soul and bless your family."
Anonymous of Annandale, VA

"Never forgotten. Still thinking of you 16 years later."
Travis Price

"Hi Antoine, today's your day! I didn't get to speak to the crowd I wanted with the theme "Every airman has a story" but still spoke how amazing you are to an audience and talk to all my airmen about u all the time! Corley and I are still trading in fantasy football all the time:). Talk to u again soon"
Ryan Baldner of Selma, NC

"Many thoughts of you and Iraq this week Holt. It may have been 12 years now but we all remember you like it was yesterday. You left a very large impact in this world and brought a family of people who share this memory together for life. We all remember you and what you brought to this earth even today. I am proud to have known you and while this time of year is always hard I remember the relationship you had with God and it brings peace. Never forgotten Holt that is for sure."
Anonymous of TX

"Blessings to you and your home in the name of Jesus Christ. I am a Marine veteran who served in Iraq and was informed of many airmen who were killed this one day as rockets predetinated over top of their tents. I was pretty sad that day amongst many other days of events. I was there in iraq on balad Dec2003-2004. I remember many horrific events brother. May Jesus Bless you,his family members as you reflect on his good qualities and memories. We are only appointed one time to live and we appreciate your sacrifice and your family's..... Always faithful to lour God,Country family and in your case the air force. Thank you man. Thank you."
Matthew of CORONA,CA

"12 years have passed but you are still remembered. This day still does not get easier to deal with. We remember! E15"
Roger C. Thornton (Boots!) of Steinwenden, Germany

"To the friends and family of Antoine J. Holt, and all those who served with him: I never met Holt, but was tasked by the Marietta Daily Journal to be the reporter to cover his funeral. I've never forgotten him or those I encountered that day. I can only say I did my best to honor him and tell his story so people would remember his service and his sacrifice. It was the hardest story I ever wrote, and I can only hope I did your son, father, husband and comrade well with the words I wrote when I, too, was a young man. Thank you."
Blair Hadley of Orlando, FL

"Another year goes by. Still feels like yesterday. I saw pictures of your daughter today. She is growing up. Her smile reminds me of yours."
TSgt Nick Tankersley, Ret USAF of Layton, UT

"Time is just going by so fast. They moved your memorial to Mississippi so all the new 1C5 will know your story. I wasn't able to make it but I'm keeping your story alive by telling it to my applicants I'm putting in the Air Force. When we do or we dedicate it to a fallen hero and today we are dedicating it to you. I lost a lot of people this year and I know they are all up there with you. Say hi to my mom and sister. I'm blessed to have you all as angels looking over me. You are truly missed and I promised you will never be forgotten."
Natalia Martin of Newark, NJ

"My Dear Son,
A day doesn't go by without me thinking of you and thanking God for the years we spent together. You were the young gentleman I raised you to be and an inspiration to many. We were so devastated that fateful day on April 10, 2004 to be given the tragic news of your death. I have grown so much since that day and found how my faith has kept me strong for myself and our family. Thank you for your love support and service to our country. I love and miss you dearly my son and as the sun rises and the sun sets each day, I know that you are watching over us. Until we see each other again my angel, I know that my faith in the Lord will keep me strong when I am weak."
Courtney Garmon ~ 05/29/14 of Kennesaw, GA


"Antoine, it has been a little more than 10 years since that night on Balad. I have not forgotten your smile and great attitude and I salute you for your selflessness and sacrifice. RIP brother - Shirt"
Michael R. Hatcher MSgt, First Sergeant, Retired USAF of Warner Robins, Ga

"I continue to think of you and your sacrifice. You were my Friend and wingman. E-15"
TSgt Robert Gibbons of Shaw AFB, Sc

"10 years. Seems like just yesterday. Keeping you and your family in our minds."
TSgt Nick Tankersley, USAF RET of Layton, UT

"It's been 10 years and I still think about you often. For many of us, our lives changed that night. For me, I lost my innocence and the war finally became real because it could have easily hit my tent that night. I mean, I often was right next door in the Services tent playing Counterstrike. That night was truly life changing. I will always remember you and the sacrifice you made."
Travis of Sterling, CO


Man it has been 10 long years that you have been gone. You are still remembered...you are still missed.

CMSgt Roger C. Thornton (aka Boots!) of Osan AB, RoK


My name is Jennie, I do not know you but feel as if I should. My husband, your friend, stood outside your tent on that fateful day. He was an integral part of your homecoming. He has only had kind words for your work ,faith and friendship. I know there is not a day that goes by for which you are not in his thoughts. We came for a visit a few years ago but he was not ready to let you go. I hope and pray you are the beginning of his healing process. You are fallen but never forgotten. I never new you but you have touched my life."
Jennie/ SSGT Donaldson's Wife of Fayetteville NC

"I got to 603 ACS at Aviano, not long after you passed. Sometime after my arrival your family showed up for your memorial dedication, I've never forgotten there faces and I feel blessed to have served in the same unit as Antoine J. Holt."
of Keesler AFB, MS

"My birthday is the day after you went to heaven. I always think of you, Trisha and baby "dittles". I've prayed for your family for 9 yrs and will never stop. I pray and ask God to continue to strengthen your mother during these days. I know He gives me strength to remember to celebrate my birthday and not be sad but to rejoice that you are with Him! God Bless and thinking of you. Tasha "Weeble" Escarmant~"
Tasha (2013) of San Antonio, Texas

"Yesterday, I had occassion to celebrate and reflect on the last few years of my life/career. I thought about events and people who have changed me forever. Certain things will never slip my mind. But I mostly look to emulate Holt's positive attitude and outlook on life. I see his image everyday at the Pentagon. His painting is on the 4th floor (Apex 9/10) and oddly enough, directly in the center of all of the other tributes. Time will continue to pass, but I will still reflect on Holt's dedication to God and Country. (Why I continue to serve!)"
CMSgt (select) Roger C. Thornton of Washington DC

"To the family of A1C Holt. May God bless you on this Memorial Day. Antoine will not be forgotten. Our Father in Heaven continues to take care of him."
Jerry of Somerset, KY


Thinking of and remembering you on this memorial day."
Travis of colorado springs, co

"Holt you are forever remembered. You were a great friend and coworker. I am motivated through you everday from just the kind of person you were. I will never forget that day. It changed my life forever. I have the picture of the flag where your tent was on my desk at work. I am reminded everyday why I continue to put on this uniform. You motivate me. I know you are up above watching all of us and waiting for our time to meet up with you. Once we see each other again I will have my basketball sneakers ready so we can pick up from that day and go play. I still haven't jumped from any waterfalls yet I will wait and we can do that together. Miss you Holt"
Natalia Martin of Erie, PA

"Antoine, you were a great father, friend, person, and Airman. You have been truly missed by many. I remember our many bones games and how you grew as a player. I also remember playing foosball in the squadron breakroom. I remember training you and giving you crap for not having a drivers license. You rub off on many. I pray that your family is doing well. Take care buddy.

MSgt Raisean "Laz" Lasenberry of Luke AFB, Arizona

"E-15...we will never forget.

Boots! (2012)"
Boots! Thornton of Washington DC

"Fellow Scorpions, if you're in the Atlanta area, you can pay your respects at Lincoln Cemetery -- 2275 Joseph E. Boone Boulevard Northwest Atlanta, GA 30314. (Holt's grave is near the chapel, off the main road)"
Kat Van Gieson of Virginia, USA

"8 freaking years... Heres a few beers to you bud."
Tommy of VA

"Another year goes on without you Antione. This has been a bad year. I have lost three co-workers this year. A co-worker and a brother in law in the last week. Here's to your family for staying strong and your extended family for keeping you in their hearts."
Nick Tankersley of Layton, UT

"Airman Holt I was in Qatar when I heard of your passing in 2004, I still remember you today even though 8 years have passed. Your are a hero and will never be forgotten."
Senior Airman Sessions of Connecticut

"Antoine, I have not forgotten about you nor will I ever. You were a great human being, great husband,awesome father, and excellent troop. I remember how easy going you were and always ready to get the job done. You made lasting impressions on everyone you ever met and I am glad I was given the opportunity to know you and work with you. Be easy my brother"
Danny Rodriguez of Madison, AL

"I never met you Amn Holt but I was there that day when the RPG hit your tent and killed you instantly. Some of us from the 332nd Heavy Equipment Shop were tasked with cleaning up the remains after your body was removed. I will remember this horrific and disturbing wartime event for the rest of my life. I have nightmares about what took place on that fateful day. My condolences go out to your entire family. My prayers are with you."
Ret. MSgt Edward Mitchell of Coeur d Alene, ID 83815

"To you on this Veteran's Day Antoine...Thank you! I pray your family is doing well."
Jerry Cataldo of Somerset, KY

"A1C Holt,

I never met you, but we are reminded of you daily here in Kirkuk as we get ready to finally leave Iraq by the end of this year (2011). There is a wall dedicated just to you with your name on it. Thank you for your service, you have really made a impact on your fellow 1C5X1s!"
SSgt Justin Hall of Kirkuk AB, Iraq 2011

"To the family of Antoine J. Holt:
My name is Sarah Rosenbaum and I am part of a group called the American Soldiers Memorial Project. We are a group of volunteers that cross stitch or hand embroider memorials for fallen soldiers. Antoine's name was chosen for me and I would be honored if you would accept a stitched memorial. It is a gift from me to you as a way of saying thank you for your sacrifice. Please send me an email so I can verify the information I've received and also discuss with you what information you would like on the memorial. Again, I look forward to honoring Antoine's memory with this piece.

Thank you,
Sarah Rosenbaum
Sarah Rosenbaum of Kennesaw, GA

"To the family of Antoine Holt,
My name is Jerry Cataldo, I was responsible for collecting all of Antoine's personal belongings and taking an inventory of everything. But, once I got into that tent and started collecting things it was if God was really connecting me with Antoine. Everything I picked up, from pictures of his family to a Bible became so important, so real and I felt I got to know him through this experience. I took special care of everything I touched. While in the middle of my inventory a higher ranking official told me to hurry up and that his family did not need every little thing. I asked him "If this were your son, would you want everything you could have to remember him by". I sure pray everything was returned to you in order. Antoine will always be remembered. He is a hero and now is with our Heavenly Father where we will all meet once again."
Jerry Cataldo, USAF Ret of Somerset, KY

"This is my mark stating that after 7 years, I have not forgotten Antoine. I've learned not to mourn Antoine, but to celebrate him. In a short span, he touched a lot of lives, and I can only hope to do the same. I thank God for his life and sacrifice. Scorpion for Life!!"
Brian Johnson (BJ) of Memphis, TN

"Antoine...I met you a few times about while I was stationed at Aviano...you will not be forgotten, and you are missed by many. I know you are looking down upon your fellow airmen and still lending your support. I know it is well appreciated."
Sra (Jamaica) Ottey (ret) of FL, USA

"I never knew you but I was there that day, my tent just 3 down from yours. Now I am currently assigned to the 603rd in Aviano and I want you, your family and everyone to know that to this day we still take you everywhere with us. And we will never forget..."

"Antoine, it's been seven years now since we lost you. A lot has changed in the world but some things like our memories with you stay the same. Wished we had more to share. We miss you."
Nick Tankersley of Layton, UT

"i cant beleave it has alnost been 7 yrs since what happen still think about everyday and even when i am playing dominos. and your family is still in my prayers"
Dane Clark former 603rd of Vacherie, LA

"To the family of:Antoine J. Holt
I am so sorry for the loss of your love one. My heart cries out for you in your grief and you have my thoughts and prayers. He died a hero defending freedom. May you have the peace and understanding that only comes from God. Prayerfully we will all meet in Heaven one day where we will rest in the arms of Jesus. If you need prayer or need someone to talk to, please call or write my pastor: Rev. John Pearrell 11677 Brown Bridge Rd., Covington, GA 30016. (770)787-1015.
Your friend in Jesus Christ, Polly Ballew Covington,Ga" 1-2-11"


Thank you for being such a wonderful person. Thank you for always smiling in the hallways and making everyone laugh. Thank you for being a gentleman to everyone around you.Thank you so very much for serving our country; you are missed by many."
Ciceli Vaughan of Kennesaw, GA

"Antoine, You continue to be in my heart & prayers! Although it has been more than 6 years since the Lord called for you...the beauty of your heart, smile & kindness lives on in those blessed to have shared moments in your life. Trish & Carmen remain in our prayers. Thank you Antoine! You were a true Wingman, Leader, & Warrior!"
CMSgt Arleen Heath of Randolph AFB TX

"Holt, its amazing to believe it has been 6 years already. On Memorial Day this year I thought of you often. You really were one of the most genuine people I have ever met. I pray that your daughter knows how wonderful her daddy was. To Trish and the rest of the Holt family, Antoine's legacy is alive forever. I know that none of us in the ACS at Balad that April will ever forget that night. May God bless all of you."
Harmony Hartless of former 603rd member now in Guam

"To lose a Air Force memeber especially one that is in your career field is heart breaking. Hearing the stories of how Antoine Holt smile brightens every one day around him is amazing. For a young man to pay the ultimate sacrifice for his country is priceless. I never met him physically but hearing the stories of him is like I knew him a long time. Antoine Holt and family thank you for the lasting memories you shared. God Bless your wife and the family you left behind."
TSgt Rickey Walkes of Al Udeid AB, Qatar

"Holt, today is memorial day 2010. You are still in our thoughts. The E-15 crew still looks to honor your sacrifice 6 years later. We will never forget....Boots!"
SMSgt Roger "Boots!" Thornton of Tyndall AFB, Fl

"Trunks, I miss you my friend. Jenn and I continue to pray for Trish and your little girl."
Major Anthony Owens of Kadena AB, Japan

"A1C Holt,

I was there that night in a tent just a few rows down. i will never forget that night or you as long as I live. I ran the sound system at your memorial just meters from where your tent was. I got to see some of your belongings and pictures of your wife and child. I must say having to deal with all those emotions was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do and I'm still dealing with them. I'm sorry this happened to you and I wish we could've all came home together. If it helps, we found the guys who did this to you and lit them up like a christmas tree. Well i think i've said all i wish to say at this time. Just know that you will always be in my memories."

"Antoine, I never met you. But fell in love with your daughter, wife and mother, dad and little sister as if they were my own family. I was one of the ones with Trish the night they notified her, and held her as she cried. God was holding me. My birthday is April 11th; the 10th will never be the same for me again. I have tried to contact your mom by email but have not received any responses. Just wanted to say hello, can't find Trish either, looked on face book but no luck. Anyhow I am rambling on but this is what I would say if you were standing in front of me right now, I would tell you how much "dittles" looks just like you and how much of God I saw in Trish and your mom adopted my family... (warm smiles). I call SMSgt. Thornton from time to time because I get down around that time, but I have learned it’s not meant for me to get all sad but for me to cherish the moments God allowed me to cross paths with your family. Thank you for your sacrifice and may your soul rest with God that is my prayer.

P.S my email is tasha.escarmant@gmail.com (for mom or Trish to reach me)."
Tasha D. Escarmant of Lackland AFB, Texas


Still thinking of you on this early spring day. You and your family will never be forgotten and I will always cherish the memory of your everlasting smile and friendship."
Nick Tankersley of Layton, UT

"To Antoine,

I never met you but know many who did. You remain in the hearts and minds of your brethren and 1C5s."
Bryan Villanueva of Tyndall AFB, FL

"A1C Holt,

In the untimely event of your passing, a new birth of appreciation and respect was felt by many-- including myself. Sleeping a few tents away, little did I know your name would be permanent fixture in my memory and serve as a constant reminder. It reminds me of being part of something bigger than ourselves and how one person's life can alter the course of those around them. By being in harms way and doing your duty, you paid the ultimate sacrifice.

Although you may not physically be with your wife, daughter, parents, or fellow servicemembers-- you have made a lasting impression that is not forgotten and allowed us a glimpse of what it means to serve others. I hope to keep that spirit alive."
Former SrA Jon Groves of Moody AFB, GA ; Jacksonville, FL

"Here's a link to a song I wrote dedicated to Antoine:
Lawrence of Benicia, CA

"To the family of Antoine J. Holt,

I just wanted to leave another message again at this time of year to let you know that even though 5 years have passed I still think of that horrible night in Iraq when Antoine was taken from this earth. I believe he is at peace and just want you to know that he is still in so many of our memories even today. He won't ever be forgotten from anyone in the 603rd during that time."
Harmony Hartless

I will never entirely get over the shock of finding out a friend to us all had been taken away. 5 years ago today, and we all still feel the impact. God bless you, your family, your friends and all who were required to make the ultimate sacrifice. You will never be forgotten."
TSgt Adam G. Maresch, formerly of the 603d ACS of Creech AFB, NV

"March 29, 2009
To the family of Airman 1st Class Antoine J. Holt:
Antoine gave the ultimate sacrifice and will be held in the hearts of Americans forever. I cannot and will not let our fallen heroes be forgotten. My deepest sympathy to you. "Some gave all."
Peggy Childers
"Don't Let The Memory Of Them Drift Away"
Peggy Childers of Carson City, NV

"To the holt family.

antoine was one of the frist freind that i made when i pcs to aviano. He was a great person in the uniform and out it. i can beleave that it is going on 5 years that he has been taken form us. let his little daughter know that her dad was a great man all around."
Dane Clark of oklahoma city, ok

"I think of you often and will never let folks forget the price you paid. Thank you for answering the call."
Geoff of Maxwell AFB, AL

"WOW, what does one write on here. Alot has happened in the last four years since April 10th. Everything has come back to me now that Im back at Balad. I too saw you that night, I didnt even know you. There has not been one day I dont think about what happened that night, I saw and felt the mortar hit from across the street. For some reason, after moving tens of thousand injured troops out of theater...why is it that you and Amn Palamino are the only ones that are in my mind so vividly, I dont have an answer for that. But I know "that night" four and a half years ago made up my mind to be a lifer in the Air Force as a Medic."
TSgt Patrick Carlin of Ipswich Mass

"Antoine and Family, as I sit here on my convalescent leave I started to research into the 603rd, my new home as of April 2008. I will bring your name up at work to keep the memories going. Take care."
SrA Robert Muscato of Aviano AB, Italy 603rd ACS

"man four years ago today; just seems like yesterday you Trish, and Carmen was at the house, eating turkey & playing playstation. I will never forget the lunchtime & after work domino games; the sport's, whose team is better. Watching you and Corley play NCAA football. The 3-on-3 basketball tourney's, the 4-on-4 basketball league. I feel bad that of the 4 member's on our team, I was the only one not to be hurt that fateful night. I still have a hard time dealing with what happened that night, it still hurt's like hell. I am sorry I have not been on here until now, just couldn't come to it. I have emailed your mom a couple times, talk to Trish now and then. I will come visit you in Ga soon."

"A1C Holt, I didn't know you personally but I was deeply saddened to know of your passing shortly after I arrived in Aviano. I remember attending the memorial service and listening to Taps and the 21 Gun salute. You may not have worked with me, but you are still my brother-in-arms and my fellow airman. You will always be remembered...may god rest your soul and may you rest in peace for all time."
SrA Rory Schlosberg of Ellsworth AFB (Formerly of Aviano AB, Italy)

"I am proud to say that I too was a friend of Antoine's at North Cobb High School. He was always a happy individual and gave 110% at everything he did. When I heard about what happened, I simply could not believe it and did not want to believe it. It's because of him and so many others that have lost their lives and their families to protect our freedom that I am so thankful to be living in this country today. My thoughts and prayers will forever be with him, his family, his friends, and all of the people he has embraced his love upon in his life. We miss you Antoine and we thank you and everyone else that has ever served our country to keep our Freedom alive. God Bless you and your family."
Seth Wallace of Kennesaw, GA USA

"A1C Holt,

You have been on my mind a lot lately. I'm not really sure why. Every time I think about that night and seeing you injured still leaves that pressure in my chest. The kind of pressure that feels like it's choking you to the point where you can't breathe and wished the tears would just fall and relieve that pressure from your heart. I never had the pleasure of actually getting to know you, but I could have seen you around tent city. Maybe we played a game of ping pong together. If we did, I don't remember. I can't imagine how your loved ones felt after hearing the news, but I'm sure if I had met you that my heartache today would be even harder. Maybe it plays so much in my head because it's a day that is easily remembered for me. April 9th was my father's B-Day, he had passed away a year prior. It's a day that was already really hard day for me. The 9th was the same night we were hit. There were about 10 medics that responded that night only seconds after the impact. I know that my team and I did everything we could to help, but I still feel like crap. I don't know how to let it out. I can't find comfort talking to any one because they won't understand. I have tried to forget about that night and the following days after, but the images are still so vivid. Crying doesn’t really seem to help either. I can’t remember you through the good times, because there are no memories to replace these thoughts with. A lot of the medics came to see you off. Up to that point, I had already seen many injured soldiers leave the country. We listened to their stories. We laughed and cried with them. We bandaged their wounds. We spent many hours getting to know them, and you are the only one that I remember. After you left us the days following did not get any better. At that time, the sounds of the mortars attacks were no longer fazing us, but now it was like it was our first day in theater. Every time I would hear an incoming mortar, I would see you that night lying in front of the chapel. Some of the mortars were closer than others. I would go to sleep at night with my body armor placed over top of me. My nightmares would wake me up. It was the only time in eight years of being a medic that I have ever felt this way. The first 4th of July I spent in San Fran. I was startled by the fireworks’ cracking beauty. It took six months after I got home to take off my dog tags. I found this poem not too long ago and I imagine if you could speak to your friends and family that this is what you might say. I hope that I too may find some peace with the memories that I have of you.

Don't Grieve For Me
Shannon Moseley

Don't grieve for me,
for now I'm free
I'm following the path
God laid for me.
I took His hand when
I heard His call
I turned my back and left it all.
I could not stay another day,
to laugh, to love, to work or pray.
Tasks left undone
must stay that way,
I found that peace at
the close of day.
If my parting has left a void,
Then fill it with remembered joy.
Perhaps my time has
seemed all too brief,
Don't lenghten it now
with undue grief.
Lift up your hearts,
and share with me
God wanted me now,
He set me Free.
Antoine Holt, A1C, USAF
Early Morning April 10th 2004
You will never be forgotten…

SSgt Hatfield
The medic…"
of Las Vegas, Nevada

"I was the Resource Advisor for the squadron when I heard that Antoine died. I didn't know him too well, but remembered that great smile and the happy moods he was always in. I think about him and how he was very young and had a family that must miss him terribly. I remember seeing all of the guys and girls that returned and thinking that this was not somewhere we needed to be."
Master Sergeant (Retired) Howard Elliot of Springfield, Virginia

"Antoine, I am ashamed for this to be my first time posting something here. Regardless I think about you and the 603rd all the time. I am grateful for time that you were here on earth. You meant a lot to so many people in so many different ways. The real reason I am posting you this message is to tell you that my son was born last night, July 16, 2007. His name is Julian Antoine Ball. The Antoine is in loving memory of you. I know he's something special just like you are. I promise I will drop in more and let you know how the fam is doing. You are gone but never forgotten..."
SSgt Daniel Ball, formally 603 ACS Balad AB, Iraq of Peterson AFB, Colorado

"To the family of A1C Holt : My name is Crystal Thompson and I didnt have the chance to know your missed loved one. I Received his POW-MIA bracelet at Lackland AFB 2 1/2 years ago that has this soldiers name on it. I was wondering if anyone in the family would like to have this bracelet in memory. I was told that only one bracelet was made per soldier but Im not really sure how the system works. I give the family and friends of this fallen angel all my condolences and prayers. I have prayed for this Airman every night since I was given this bracelet. You can contact me at Crystaljuliomia@yahoo.com if you would like to have it. Once again sorry for your loss."
A1C Crystal Thompson of Nellis AFB, Nevada

"It has been 3 years since that night and I find myself back in Balad where it all happened. I am no longer in the ACS but here on base nevertheless. I am heading over to the ACS this weekend and plan on stopping by the stadium to see the dedication to you. Even though a lot has happened and we all get busy in our day to day lives I still never forget about my family in the 603 and everything we experienced together. Antoine you ar egreatly missed, everywhere I go I run in to people who's life you impacted. We all miss you and your family is constantly in our thoughts and prayers."
Shean Leigon formerly of the 603d ACS of Balad Air Base, Iraq

"I just wanted to send my prayers out to the family of Antoine as that time of year comes again, even though to so many of us it seems like only yesterday. Antoine will never be forgotten by anyone who has ever known him and with this he is forever alive. Even though almost 3 years have passed there are so many of us that will always be a 603rd Scorpion with the memory of Antoine and of that horrible night back on April 10, 2004 that took him from this earth. God bless you and may he bring you strength at this time that is so hard."
Harmony Hartless, SSgt (formerly in 603 ACS) of San Angelo TX

"Trish, I don't know if you remember me from Aviano, Italy. I was a member of the 603ACS and threw you a baby shower at the squadron. I PCSed before the tour in Iraq, but when I heard about Airman Holt, My heart broke for you and your precious daughter. I remembered the twinkle in both of your eyes and the uncertainty of parenthood. I remember the questions you were asking me about pregnancy and babies. I just couldn't believe that he had been taken away so young. When I let it sink in, I cried for you. I still think of you and your daughter and hope you are doing well. My email is monaca.barnes@barksdale.af.mil if you ever need anything. I would love to send your daughter a gift if possible. Please email me if you have time. My name is Monaca Barnes and I left while pregnant with my #2 child. I don't know if that helps much in remembering me. My Prayers are still with you and your family. God Bless you~"
SSgt Monaca Barnes of Barksdale AFB, La USA

"I knew Antoine at North Cobb High School in Kennesaw and graduated in his class. I had classes with him throughout school and he was always very friendly and kind to me. I'm proud to say I knew this man who has sacrificed all for this country! I will miss him (especially at our class reunions). It is my humble prayer that the Lord will bless his wife and child for the sacrifice he made in order to provide freedom and independance to others."
Aaron Jenkins of Kennesaw, GA USA

"Please join us…the friends, family, and former squadron mates of A1C Antoine Holt…in honoring his memory through this fundraiser for a worthy organization.

Throughout his life, Antoine continuously sought to help his fellow man and to make a positive difference in this world. In keeping with how Antoine lived, we are collecting funds to support an organization that is definitely making a big difference!

The “Canines For Combat Vets” program (see attached) from the New England Assistance Dog Services (NEADS) trains service dogs for recently returning combat veterans with severe disabilities. In return for our donation, NEADS will name a “Canines For Combat Vets” service dog after Antoine.

$1,320 already raised!

See our brochure:


Doug Madory of Lebanon, NH

"The raw emotional cell phone message from my daughter, SSgt. Wall, on April 10, 2004 will remain seared in my memory forever. I could sense her shock and anquish at the attack that killed Airman Holt and wounded Scott Palomino, her coworkers from the tent beside her tent that also received schrapnel from the incoming. On January 14, 2007 we had the opportunity to pay Homage, Honor, Salute, Pray For and offer Memorial Tokens for Antoine and others at the Memorial Tribute at the Women's Memorial at Arlington National Cemetary in Washington, DC. Janine was able to express her strong emotions and memories of these great individuals who have been a huge part of her life in an exceptionally beautiful place in our Nation."
Elizabeth Wall of Fairview, New Jersey

Although it has been almost 3 years since the Lord called for you, each day you are in my prayers. Thank you for being the man that you were while on this earth. A man of love for humanity, kindness, caring and always with a smile. Your commitment to our country is felt to this day...for it was your soul that touched people along the way and still does to this day! Generous in many ways, it was our blessing to have had you in our lives if even for a short time!

To Trish, Carmen, and Antoine's family: Thank you for sharing such a beautiful man, in both heart and soul, with the rest of us. Our lives are richer for having known and worked along side him. Our nation was built on men such as Antoine! God Bless you always!

I miss you Antoine!"
CMSgt Arleen Heath of Tyndall AFB, FL

"i an proud of what you had done love alex"
lill jj of florida

"To honor the Georgia soldiers who have lost their lives in Iraq and Afghanistan and their families, the professional portrait artists of the Atlanta Fine Arts League are offering to paint a portrait of the individual soldier for his family. These 16 X 20” original portraits are being offered completely free of charge in recognition of the sacrifices made by these brave soldiers and in condolence for their families’ loss. Please visit our website www.atlantafineartsleague.org or email us at AtlantaFineArtsLeague@Yahoo.com for further information. –The Atlanta Fine Arts League"
Atlanta Fine Arts League

"To the ones closest to Antoine J. Holt. What an amazing young man he must have been. I am currently stationed at the Balad Airbase LSAA, and since I was here in 2003, I saw that they have dedicated the stadium to this A1c HOLT...well, I took it upon myself to try to find out just who this hero was, and real glad I did. I did not read all of the entries; no reason to. I have found out already that I am deprived enough for not having the chance to know him. My thoughts and prayers to you who survive him."
SSG Thomas Hartwell of Ft Hood, TX

"To the ones closest to Antoine J. Holt. What an amazing young man he hust have been. I am currently stationed at the Balad Airbase LSAA, and since I was here in 2003, I saw that they have dedicated the stadium to this A1c HOLT...well, I took it upon myself to try to find out just who this hero was, and real glad I did. I did not read all of the entries; no reason to. I have found out already that I am deprived enough for not having the chance to know him. My thoughts and prayers to you who survive him."
SSG Thomas Hartwell of Ft Hood, TX

"I happened to be searching for something else and this page came up.

I hope it is not inappropriate that I call by and pay my respects to Airman Holt, and to all those fallen. May your losses not be in vain; I hope to meet you all in what may come after. Until then, I hope you will accept my heartfelt gratitude, and to those left behind, my thanks for your forbearance and my sorrow for your loss."
Chris Jackson of UK

"Hey Toine,
Everyday i think bout you i wish i would have just wrote you and said hello if it was all when Trish gave me your email. I beat myself up with that all the time. Why do you have to be gone. I was happy you were coming home. I missed you and i was thinking me you Trish and whomever i'm with would hang. It would have been Beautiful. Everytime i say my sons name i think wow he has alot to live up too. I'm glad that i had the oppertunity to name him after you. You were and still are a great friend.I love you. Please watch over us especialy Trish and your Daughter. Help Trish to come to peace with your mother and i know that take effort on both there parts."
Christine Douse of Marietta, GA/ USA


It has been 2 years and your loss is still felt. The gang that hung together in tent city all feel the heaviness on 10 April of each year since. We remember...we will never forget you."
TSgt "Boots!" Thornton of 603 ACS, Aviano, Italy

"I think about you everyday. Not a day goes by, seriously, that you don't cross my mind.
I laugh when I think about how we used to try not to fall asleep doing our training on the computers in DOT. It was a struggle everyday to concentrate on that stuff!! But we made it through.
I also appreciate how you brought me food in Baghdad b/c I was too chicken to go to eat dinner at night. I saw a side of you in Iraq that I am upset that I never took enough time to see when we were all hanging out in Italy.
Duane still talks about you too. We talk about how much you loved Trisha. It showed. We knew it. There was nothing you wouldn't do for her and Carmen. That's a beautiful thing.
I still haven't been able to watch the memorial DVD. Even though I spoke at the memorial service ( still don't know how I managed that ) I have yet to watch the copy that was given to me. It is a relief to know that you are with God and He is for sure going to take perfect care of you... just like he did when you were here.
Can't wait to see u again. Maybe we can have some barbequed t-bone steak!!!
I love you Antoine!!"
Felecia R. Christy of Dallas, TX

"I just came back from Balad AB. During my stay there, I heard about Antonie. Even though the base is full of completely different people who weren't there when he died, he is still being spoken highly of. I had to check out this story for myself, and I now realize that it is exactly the two-year anniversary of his death. I am so sorry for the loss of a great man. What a wonderful person he must have been."
SrA Riddles of New Jersey

It still feels like yesterday to me, but when I look at the calendar time is just going by. Sometimes I just wish everything could just stop and I can just go back in time. Maybe we could watch all if the movies that you haven't seen yet or you can borrow some more of my cds to catch up on the music. Just the simple things that you use to do makes me value everything I have now. I talk about you all the time because I refuse to let you be forgotten. Remember when you would always try to make me and Palo get along. I would do anything to go back to that. I miss you and Palo so much. I just want you to know that you were one of my best and truest friends that I have. No one replaced you after you left because I know we meet up again."
Natalia Williams of Keflavik Iceland

"To the family of Antoine J. Holt.

I am part of the 603rd Scorpions and was in Balad with Antoine from Jan 04 to Jun 04. Even with the years that have now pasted I still think of Holt and how he taught us all so many things. He was a man of very few words and yet spoke so much to each of us. I would like you to know that he will not be forgotten in the hearts or minds of any of those who knew him of even just those that were present during his sacrificial day. He is truely and angel that will never be forgotten. You all are in my thoughts and prayers often and I am so sorry for your loss. I hope it helps to know that even today people still think of him often and remember the great man that he was."
Harmony Hartless, SSgt 603rd ACS of Aviano Italy

"To the family of Antoine J. Holt,
My name is SrA Barr, Jeremy I was at the attack were your love one died. I think of him and you all daily, everyday goes by I wander if we could have ran just a little bit faster, got there a little bit soon would he still be here today. I struggle daily with what happen. I hope and pray that God gives you peace like I ask of him for me. My love and apologize go out to you."
SrA Barr, Jeremy/ Security Forces of Spangdahlem AFB, Germany

I do not know you, nor did I know your precious Antoine, but my son and his wife, Dave and Bonnie knew him well. Bonnie was at Balad with Antoine. I received the call from another friend that there had been an incident and I was frantic. My son was in the air on his way home to visit me when the call came and I had to greet him at the airport with the news that his friend had died and his wife couldn't be reached. It was the hardest thing I had to do. His reaction was extreme sadness, then anger. He told us about Antoine and your family. I felt a great sadness for you and your baby girl. Even though I never met him, I wanted to let you know I think of him often, and pray for your family. I am proud to be a USAF Mom."
Mallory Hayes of Santa Clara, CA USA


You are my true love and the first person i ever met that showed me how it is to love inspite of one's feelings. I want you to know that many will forget you, but i never will. People will continue on with you as a distance memory, a forgotten hero, but you weren't just a hero, you were more than words could ever express, more than most people will ever fathom or understand. You are the last of the decency left in this country, in this entire world!! I won't forget those pepsi nites (all we had to eat and drink, lol), the times we ran in the grass to escape the rain, the times when we laughed and cried together, and all the intimate moments that we ever shared. I think of you often, even after almost 2 years, and i hope that i am making you proud. Carmen asks for you often, and i always tell her that you live in the sky, in heaven (that's what she tells people (smile)) I miss you, you are still my best friend and it is hard not having you to talk to about my problems, insercurities, and shortcomings. It's hard because you were my muse, my love, my all. I will carry on in your absence and become a lawyer, someone honest, lol, that is willing to fight for those who can't speak up to injustice, people like you baby. I will be a force to be reckoned with, because you taught me well. It gets hard sometimes, but i won't give up speaking for you, even if i stand alone, just like you did : ) I love you and will never take the moments i was blessed to have you in my presence for granted!! I will extend your legacy and become the woman YOU knew i could become. God knows i love you, always, and that i WILL make you proud beyond comprehenion one day. Thank you for changing my life so that i can go out and change the world. You will always be my muse, my love and my all. Your wife, love, and best friend : )


P.S. Carmen takes the cheese off of her pizza and only eats the sauce, sounds familar, huh? LOL!"
Patricia Holt of Kennesaw, GA

"I am SRA Barebo, I was stationed in Balad from March 04 to July 04 and was working night shift when Holt's tent was hit, I was by the shower/bathroom trailors nearest his tent, apprx 20-25 ft., when the mortar hit his tent. I offer my condolences and support to his family and would also like you to know that a memorial was raised in the spot where his bunk would have been."
SRA Jason Barebo of ft. meade maryland

"I was also in Balad from Mar 04-Jun 04 and worked as U.S. Customs inspector (security forces). I will forever remeber this early morning. His tent was only a few down from mine and I remeber the look on all the others in my tent when we stepped out after the impact. I met Antoine twice in the rec tent. The wing commander spoke very highly of him and his sacrafice at a commanders call soon after this fateful day. That easter weekend was really tuff with the mortar attacks at Balad. My thoughts and prayers go out to the family."
SSgt Sean Brown of North Little Rock, Arkansas

"To the family and friends of Airman 1st Class Antoine J. Holt,

Those we hold most dear, never truly leave us. May you find comfort in love's everlasting connection.

In the Support section of this web site you will find links to many groups that support you at this crucial time. The Marine Comfort Quilt group would be honored to send a quilt to the next of kin. There are many, loving and caring Americans from all over the United States that will never forget the sacrifice that your loved one has made for our Freedom. Please use our link and register so we can send you our "Love Stitched Together."

Proud Wife of an Air Force veteran and Proud MCQ Member"
Kim Woodard of Richmond, VA

"Hi my name is Sra Wyman. I was at balad AB Iraq from jan 04 to jun 04. I am a firefighter. On the night Amn Holt was killed i was driving the rescue truck.
I will never forget that night.A1C Shaw
and my self were the ones to carry him out of the tent to the ambulance. I am so sorry for your lost. I am not a fake.
another amn was taken out of the tent who lost his foot. Right after we took amn Holt out of the tent we got attacked again and went into alarm red.
we were hiding right behind the rec tent between the barriers.While I was over there Amn Holt wasnt the only one I saw killed but his death affected me the most. He was the only Air Force person to die while I was there and it really woke me up to know no one was safe on the base. If you have any questions for me just email me at
chris wyman of patrick afb fl

"I was at Balad AB in a tent about twenty feet away from A1C Holt's on that tragic evening. I briefly met him when we first arrived in March 04'. The loss of Antoine has forever changed my life. He will always be cherished and never forgotten. My deepest sympathy to his family, as well as to all of his friends, and the Americans that are touched by his heroic deed. May the Lord Bless you and keep you Antoine!"
SSgt Gregg of Keesler AFB MS

"I'd Like to express my condolences to the family of Antoine Holt.
I was assigned to the 603ACS and worked alongside Antoine for about 6 months prior to my departure to Germany. What I remember most about Antoine was his sencire smile and his willingness to always help out when needed. He was always the first to step up to a "RUB Detail". The last image I have about Airman Holt was a day we went out fishing. He brought his young wife and his newborn with him. It reminded me of myself when I was his age. We had a pretty fun time that day.
When I found out about what happend, I was devestated. Such a fine young man! May he rest in peace, his sacrifice will not be forgaten."
TSgt Cueto of Ramstein AB, Germany

"I was assigned to the 603rd Air Control Squadron and stationed at Baghdad International Airport with Antoine before the convoy to Balad. I was one of the few that returned early from Iraq. I also attended his memorial service at Aviano shortly after my return. It was a very respectable memorial service, for a very respectable young airman. I never actually knew Antoine, I seen him pass by a few times. Always smiling. His friends, family and colleagues spoke very highly of him, I am sure he will be missed. I send my deepest condolences to his family and friends. All gave some, but some gave all."
SrA Jimmy R. Roberts Jr. USAF of Andrews AFB, MD

"I never met you, but I saw you walking around tent city alot. Many spoke highly of you and you always wore a smile on your face. I was there on that dreadful night, along with many other brave men and women. Rest in Peace Antoine. May God shine his light upon you and your family. God Bless


"I can only imagine the family's pain at the loss of Antoine. Our own 20 year old A1C is currently in Iraq and our thoughts and prayers go out to the family for the apprehension they experienced before his loss and the pain since. Antoine will never be forgotten and will always be one of my heroes."
Sandra Williams of Texarkana, AR

"To the Family of A1C Holt

My Sincere Condolenses on your loss

I was on the base that night and words can't describe how I feel. I can't say I know your son personally, however I did play basketball with him on Sundays from time to time. He was a good Man and his memory will be with me forever.

God Bless you and keep you strong."
TSgt Kenneth Bergeron of Balad AB Iraq

"I went to North Cobb High school with Antoine was a good friend with his wife Tricia and her three sisters. I am sadden by this loss. Antoine was a very special person. He could put a smile on you face anytime. I will always remember his laugh. I will continue to pray for both Tricia and the baby and also for the Holt family. Antoine, you are missed"
Annessa Montenegro (annessam@hotmail.com) of Smyrna,Ga, USA

"may god bless al of you stay strong"
shana of geleen the netherlands

"I went to high school with Antoine and I am so heart broken to know that someone that was such an amazing person is no longer with us. I remember sitting with him at lunch and talking and laughing with him, sneaking out to the senior courtyard to be able to eat lunch with him (he graduated a year before I did). Antoine always knew what to say to make my day that little bit better. While I am extremely saddened by the loss, I am happy that I at least got the chance to meet him. I just want to send my best wishes to his wife and child."
brielle of Washington, D.C.

"I am A1C Robert Allen Ayers, USAF from Kennesaw Georgia. I attended High School with you Antoine. May your family always remember and cherish the memory of you as the true hero that you are."
Robert A. Ayers. A1C, USAF of Kennesaw Georgia

"I never met Antoine Holt or even heard of him, but I am very honored that this man gave his life to protect mine. He served with honor and he makes me very proud to be an American...His sacrifice will never be forgotten and I will honor him by raising my daughter to be kind, loving and respectful of their freedom. Thanks Antoine....God Bless my friend"
Larry LaFon of Huntington, WV...usa

"Godspeed, Andoine. I know you are smiling down from heaven at us as you walk with God. We will never forget you."
Frank Padilla of Colleyville, TX

"anyone who is willing to fight and die for this country is an amazing person. Mr.Holt should be honored and respected by everyone."
Meghan of Atlanta

"Airman Holt,

Thank you for allowing our family to live in the Greatest Country on Earth. You and your family are in our prayers. You are a Great American."
Wilson Family of Woodstock, GA

leonard t. wahl of VALLEY STREAM NY

"Airman Holt, goodbye airman and thank you. You are my hero."
Bill of Houston, Texas

"To the family of Antonine J. Holt
We thank Antonine for his altimate sacrifice. Our son Peter is also serving at Balad and our hearts and prayers go out to your family."
The Salmeri's of Suisun, CA USA

"My heart is heavy as I bid farewell to a neighbor of mine here in Kennesaw. I never knew Antoine and he never knew me but I will forever remember him as a hero.

To Antoine's family: your son is through my eyes a hero. I will always remember him for the sacrifice he put forth for his country.

Please keep Antoine's family in your prayers.

Stay strong and God bless."
Jade Morey (rjmorey123@aol.com) of Kennesaw, Georgia

"To Antoine's Family:
There are no words to express the deep sorrow we feel for your family at this time. May God bless you and help you through..."
Dan and Meg Manninen of San Antonio, Texas

"To the family of A1C Antoine J. Holt,
We are very sorry for the loss of your brave son. May he be a guardian angel and watch over his fellow airmen currently stationed in Iraq.
Our son Jason e-mailed us of your son's tragedy. Jason is currently stationed at Balad Air Base, Iraq.
God watch over you and your family."
Doug and Peggy Barebo of Huntington, West Virginia

"Rest in Peace Brave Warrior..."
The Taylors USMC of NC

"To Antoine's Family:

On behalf of the Blanco-Caldas family, we send our sincere condolences to you. We share the same loss ... the same pain. Our prayers are with you and we thank you for his bravery and sacrifice.

From the family of Capt. Ernesto M. Blanco-Caldas, KIA Iraq 12/28/2003"
Gloria Caldas (his mom) of San Antonio, TX

"Dear Antoine,
Thank you for protecting all of us in America by fighting in Iraq. We are all so grateful to you for protecting us at home. Your courage and honor will always be remembered by your country. Thank you so much."
mark reif of winchester, VA

Please KNOW so many people share your sadness, and we are remembering your family in your loss and your deep grief. Your HERO, Antoine, will be remembered by name. Our thoughts and prayers are with you. God Bless you. Pat & Sandi Breckenridge from Montana "

"Thank you Antoine Holt, you will not be forgotten. Your bravery goes beyond words. I want to express my deepest gratitude for your sacrifice. To the family and friends, my prayers and deep condolences in your loss. May God strengthen you from knowing that fellow Americans and people around the world care about you and grieve with you in your loss. God bless you all. A very appreciative fellow American,"
Leo Titus of Grayslake, Illinios

"To the family and friends of Airman 1st Class Antoine Holt:
May God's grace be with you during your time of grief. Please know that our thoughts and prayers are with you and we feel your loss and share in your sorrow. Bless Antoine for the sacrifice he has made to make a better life for the rest of us."
The Ford Family of Wells, Nevada

"To the family and friends of Airman 1st Class Antoine Holt:
I am saddened by the loss of your loved one. He will always be remembered as a hero for fighting for freedom. I hope that this website will be a source of comfort and encouragement for you during this difficult time, and in the future as you recall the memories of Antoine, who continues to live on in your heart."
Tim Rivera of Powder Springs, Georgia

Honor them by remembering... Freedom - is their gift to us But his soul goes marching on