Fallen Heroes of Operation Iraqi Freedom

"I was thinking of you today. I found a quote that made me think of what taught me and that is love. You always taught me that no matter what you loved me.
The quote is "If I know what love is, it is because of you."-Herman Hesse
You never ended a phone call, letter or an emial without telling me you loved me. I wanted to thank you for giving me that love that I needed. I hope you knew that I loved you just as much.I know I was a pain in the a@# somtimes but thats what little sisters are for!! Thanks again for being the best brother anyone could have asked for! Miss you tons and love you to infinity Later Dude... :)"

"I know it has taken me a little time to write to you. I have been busy with Abby and no sleep. I can see you in her face, it is very strange. You would be a proud Uncle. Ever now and then I can see a dimple when she smiles, she must have gotten that from her Aunt Marcie.

I now understand what you meant when you told me everything changes when you have a baby. And it does not take weeks or days. It is in that moment you see their face and look into their eyes. It is so quick! I wish you were here. I know you will watch over her and protect her. Thank you for that. Darlene has been down twice to visit and help out. I'm not sure what I would do without her. She is going to spoil Abby! But I guess that is what Aunts do best. Gotta go for now. I'll talk to you soon, so listen.

I love you Ben. NAAF"
Andrea of Carthage,MO

"April 23, 2008
To the family of Sgt. Benjamin W. Biskie:
Benjamin gave the ultimate sacrifice and will be held in the hearts of Americans forever. I cannot and will not let our fallen heroes be forgotten. My deepest sympathy to you. "Some gave all."
Peggy Childers
"Don't Let The Memory Of Them Drift Away"
www.IraqWarHeroes.org"
Peggy Childers of Carson City, NV

"Hey Buttheadhead! Just took vacation and spent it with Andrea, TJ and new Abigail. She is too cute! She loves to make little nosies and did kinda laugh a couple of times. She is too cute. Please watch over and protect her always! Love and miss ya"

"HI BEN IAM AT LEANING TO USE A COMPUTER
NOW I MISS YOU SO MUCH ITS SO HARD SOMETIMES DAD GUBA SAID HI YOU WERW A GOOD SON AND YOU BROKE THE CHAIN ALSO THE GIRLS ALL MOST 14 YEARS AT WORK I FIMALLY TURN 6O DO YOU BELIVE THAT BETTER CLOSA FOR NOW BUT I MISS YOU SO MUCH I LOVE YOU ALWAYSYOUR"
YOUR MOM of LORAIN OHIO

"Our niece is finally here and is a good looking baby!! Please watch over her and protect her. I love and miss ya!!"

"She's here, your newest niece. Congrats! You would have been so excited...Thinking of you!"

"I made a A- in my last and final class!! I have finished 2 years of school and will have my AA degree! I wish I could celebrate with you. I love and miss you. I want to thank you for your courage and dedication because I saw that in you and found it in me and used it to my advantage. Thank you for your sacrifice for me to live and have a free life. I love you
Later dude"

"Thinking of you... your always on my mind and in my heart. Love and miss lots!!!"

"Thinking of you...you're about to become an uncle - how about that? Thanks for everything, always!! Love You!!"

"Miss you..."

"Just miss you...."

"Another Birthday-you're still older!! We always will remember you, no worries..."

"Happy Birthday!! I was sick and could not leave a message till now. I love and miss you and think of you often!! Later....Dude"

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY BUTTHEAD!! You are never far from my thoughts nor my heart.I miss you and I love you."
Andrea of Carthage,MO

"Hello Butthead, Was thinking of you today. I feel your presence around me and it feels good. I love and miss you and you are thought of everyday!"

"Merry Christmas Benjamin. Our Family Thinks of You and the others daily. Life goes on but there is always an emptiness. Our Family's Prayers are with You now and Always."
Mark Splinter, Youngest Brother of Major Christopher Jon Splinter of St. Petersburg Florida

"Merry Chritsmas! It is 4 years and still thinking of you everyday! Miss you lots. Started thinking of time you would visit and what a blast we had. Andrea may kill me for this but remember when we had to go to the store for her, (we won't mention what we needed to get) and then stood by the bathroom door "poop." We were laughing so hard because she was so mad! But you know she was laughing. She also said she had a rental car and not to crash it. You said you would! HaHa. As you would say it "she will be kicking my A#* for telling this story!" This just makes me laugh! There was not dull moment with you. I remember the call I got after I had asked Andrea not to call you when I was in "the car accident" that one year. You were upset with me but handled it very well. You told me that I needed not to do that but made me laugh and understand that you love me and did not want to lose me over something that would have been worse. I was lucky that day to have my brother and sister mad at me but loved me enough to show it. You showed me unconditional love and I still feel it today. You are always around and thank you for helping me through another year. My apartment is decorated and I feel peacful this year. Thank you. Love and miss you always! Later.....Dude"
Darlene

"Here we are again, 4 years and counting, another anniversary, another milestone, another christmas thinking of you. Always and Forever!"

"Can't believe it has been four years. We miss you more than ever. This time of year always makes me think of you a little more. Just wanted to say "Merry Christmas." I wish you were still here, but I know you're still around and a part of our family gatherings & celebrations. I love you & miss you so much Ben."
Nikki

"Thank you all for still visiting, still sharing your thoughts. It's been awhile now, but it's awesome to see how much this man meant to everyone he knew!! Please keep coming, keeping sharing. It's nice to know it's here, to read over anytime you just need it. To share whenever the mood strikes. It's been 4 years now...can you believe it?"

"Wow, someone sure is moving up in the world, huh? A Major, how about that? And we were friend when... Hehehe!! Thinking of you often, goes without saying..."

"its me again and having a time thinking of you. tears just took over. Thinking of Ozzy and "no more tears". But this time you can not stop me. I think of you often and miss you. I have so many memories and share them and wish you could tell the stories cuz you added the touch. I am allergic to air!!! lol. I have done the best I can though the years but this year will be hard but at the same time easy! I miss you and will always love you.
I have dedicated myspace to you and all who have paid the ultimate sacrifice for our freedom. If anyone who would like to leave a message about Ben. please fell free. darlene biskie on my space
I love you and always will. Keep laughing even if we are kicked out of the car to walk!! I will keep moving forward each step knowing you are watching."

"Happy Thanksgiving!"

"Ben,
I was cleaning out my shop the other day and came across the old photo. Our First Place Sapper squad from B Co 1st Engineers and just cannot believe what has happened. That picture and that award we recieved that day will hold even more meaning to me because I was able to serve with a war hero, a hero who made the ultimate sacrifice and one that never forgot that he raised his right hand and why. You will always be in my thoughts.
Marcie,
I want to wish you and Ben Jr the best of holidays; I could only imagine what it is like to lose your significant other. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family also."
Kevin Wanner of Fort Leonardwood, Mo

"WOW! It really blows me away at times how you touch so many lives, how much they miss you and loved you. It makes me laugh, I remember you being upset as a kid because you were so small. The shortest in your class and skinny , you use to think you could not do as much as others. Mom told you that dynamite comes is small packages and you took it to heart, you always did your best and never gave up. I believe and know you have done more that most.
In late March you will have a Niece.Her name will be Abigail, Abby for short. I am excited and scared to death. You were always telling me to hurry up, well better late than never. At least I know you will watch over her, you will be her Angel and she will know all about you and what a great HERO her Uncle was. Sometimes just that thought makes me cry and I miss you that much more. I hope to be able to give her a brother in a few years and that way she will understand that bond. She can hold on to it and never let it go. Just like I will never let you go.I will always love you and think of your wonderful face and how much you meant to me. One of these days I will see you again, you better be ready with a hug and a laugh. I miss you and love you Ben, NAAF."
Andrea

"HAPPY VETERANS DAY!!"

"Thinking of You! 4 years now, how can time move so fast? Benjamin was 6, now he's working real quick to 11. Just seeing someone again the other day, it was nice. That is what life is all about, though, making the most of all of it. I will never forget, and although it isn't always easy, I try. Christmas is getting easier, it was always my favorite time of year. This seems more our anniversary than then. Haven't made it to but one Veterans Day parade since, I feel bad for that. That is important to me, I'll make sure to not miss many more. Take care of Thor, he's missed you. Happy Thanksgiving early, enjoy all the thoughts heading your way this time of year. You will never be forgotten, always Loved!!"

"Hey Ben...Can't believe its coming up on four years. Seems like forever ago, but then again it feels like it happened just yesterday at the same time. I miss you. I allowed my mind to wander the other day and just think about how things would be if you were still here. It was nice to think about the "what ifs." It's still so hard to accept that you leaving us was part of the "master plan." Sometimes it's hard to understand why some things that hurt so bad are really what's meant to be. I'm just thankful for these feelings, even though it hurts sometimes, because it shows how much you were loved and how much you meant to me...even though I know I didn't realize it enough while you were here. I have a lot of regret for that. I love and miss you bunches."

"Hi Ben. It's your day today. We're honoring you and the sacrifice you made all over the world. You must be a pretty special guy, huh? ;) I did my part. It wasn't easy, but it felt amazing to stand up there in front of all of those wonderful Veterans and say my piece in honoring them. I can't believe I was so lucky to have a part in that today. Taps played and the tears just flowed. You are so loved and so missed!!! Ozzy brought me home tonight. It was a perfect, yet bittersweet ending to such an amazing day. Thank you, Ben, for my freedom.
I Love and Miss You!!!"
Ginger of Bay City, MI

"Thinking of you and the tears just came and can't stop. I miss you soooo much and can't believe it has been so long but it feels like yesterday. I know that it was meant to happen but it is not fair. I really miss you! I have quit smoking. It has been about 2 weeks! I am proud of myself. It has been hard and I have also stayed away from the drinking. Wish I could share this you in person but I can in spirit. Thanks for being around lately. Love and miss you and you are thought of everyday. Later Dude...."

"You, and your familys' sacrifice is not in vain. Freedom is not a given. It must be fought for. My family are filling the ranks of the fallen to continue the job. God bless ALL those without selfish determination that work, and do duty towards, the ideal of freedom & liberty for all."
sandy of new zealand

"It may have been years now since you've been gone, but you are still remembered and loved as if it never happened."
misty of north carolina

"Every time I come to this page, I think I'm not going to cry. Three or so messages later, the tears fall. Wanna know something crazy? I actually met someone recently who served with you. I was so stunned, I didn't know what to say. Unfortunately, I don't know where to find him anymore, so that sucks. I felt like I lost a link to you. And thanks for the sign the other day, it made me smile. LYAHAW"
YKW

"September 11th...to me, this is where it always started. This is when you started really doing your job, when you started training and getting ready for your "real world" mission - little did we know at the time! The begining of the end. Glad we didn't know then what we know now!! I was so proud of you all! Watching, and waiting, and supporting. I was good at that. What a time, never to be forgotten. It started there, many moments, many memories since then. This anniversary sucks, almost as bad as Veterans Day. I remember where I was, and what I was doing on that day, at that time. I will never forget."

"I saw you in my dream again the other night. You looked so young and so happy. Everyone was happy. I miss you and your smile and seeing everyone together like that. I think of you a lot. We all still do. Can't believe it's been so long. Please keep visiting me and bringing a smile to my face."

"Time marches on...5th grade already, can you believe it? How did we get this old? Well, some of us, anyways!! Thinking of you always, never to be forgotten!!"

"just thinking of you lately and need to let it all out. I feel as though you are here around me and really want to just talk to you. I was talking to someone the other day and they mentioned how they can always talk to their brother and he will help them out. He is smart and knows how to do anything. I thought of you and I realized how lucky I was. I am sorry if I did not show it but I really appreciated you and loved you more then you will know. Some days I wish that you were here just so I can tell you one more time that I love you. I know you hated it when I cried but you are gone and need to let it out once in awhile. My life is not and will not be the same without you but it will go on. I will see you again and your awesome smile! Times have changed and I will never be the same without! Love you..."

"Thinking of you...as always!"

"Ben,
It seems like an eternity since you went through that gate. We miss you brother!"

"Just thinking of you! Miss and love you lots!"

"Ben,
I wanted to let you know that we did a tribute in the Lorain paper for memorial day. I miss your smile and our long phone calls.I was proud that you were never ashamed to tell me you loved me. I thought of you the other day and wanted to call. That brought a tear to my eye. I think of you everyday and miss you more. Dad "guba" said to be all you can be and you did it and he is so proud and misses you too. Please come to me in a dream and give me one of your big smiles or give me a sign you are still around. I miss you and love you. You will always have a place in my heart."
Mom of Lorain, OH

"sorry i messed up on that date it was thanks giving of 2003"
steven wiley of kingsbay Georgia USA

"Mr. Ben was a great man when he came home for thanksgiving of 2004 he gave me some iraq money and well i still have that in a picture frame and ben jr was really fun to hang out with and always wanted to go sleding in the snow and ms.marcie is a really nice woman and she always loved to seee them to boys having fun at his birthday party and wrestling in the front yard, when i found out i was shocked so i went and bought her a card Mr ben loved to see people smile and he died doing what he loved and keeping his son ,wife, neighbors ,family safe."
steven wiley of kingsbay Georgia USA

"Hi Ben. We are so lucky to get to spend these couple months this summer with Benjamin in Michigan. So far it has been such an awesome reminder of what an amazing little boy he is. You and Marcie did so good with him. Of course, now that he's 10, he's packing some attitude...but he wouldn't be your son if he didn't, right? :) He still takes the time, in little subtle ways, to show you how much he cares though. That's such an amazing and mature characteristic for someone his age. It's what I love about him most. His heart is so pure. The other day he turned to say something to me, and I totally saw you in his face. It caught me off guard. We all miss you so much. I've been thinking about you a lot. Thanks for all the memories."
Nikki

"Ben, thinking about you today so much & thinking about your family. You are always in our thoughts and prayers."
Cindy of Waynesville, MO

"Thinking of you today. My heart is sad. Today is a day to lift you up with honor, To thank you, You made the world a better place, So many people love you and miss you. Rest in peace."
Susan Gibson

"Happy Memorial Day Ben! We miss you always!"

"Marcie and Ben Jr:
Please know that you two are still in our hearts, thoughts, and prayers. Take Care."
Kimberly Fritz of New Cumberland, PA

"I am sure you are smiling today. Celebrate with your family as your son turns 10 today. He is so much like you and Marcie. I know you are very proud. LYA."

"Today was a good day. They did a dedication to all that were lost from Ft Leonard Wood base for the 5th Engineers. I was so glad that they remembered your sacrfice. I am glad to say that all of you are my hero's and you will not be forgotten. I still remember your smile and it will never leave my head. I would like you to visit sometime. I am finally older then you! never thought I would be able to say that. Thanks again for the memories I have of you and all the fun times. Thanks for being the best brother anyone could ever have.
Later.... Dude"

"In my thoughts always!"

"3 years, 4 months & 9 days....it's hard to believe that we are well past the 3 year mark. Seems like yesterday all that happened. I wanted you & Marcie to know that we think about you all the time. I think about Marcie having to live without you & Benjamin growing up without you. It makes me cry. Life never seems to turn out how we had it planned. Know everyday we think about you and your family."
Cindy Cline of Waynesville, MO

"Hello Butthead, I really miss you and have been thinking of you. Thanks again for coming to me in my dream. It has been awhile but I really appreciate it. Even though I do not remember what we talked about but just seeing you smile really made me happy. You seemed to be so happy. I know that I am doing so much better and you are proud of me. Atleast I hope you are. You were my rock and I need you more then ever. I am stuggling with somethings and I know you know what they are. Please help me with them. I need some kind of sign that I am handling it good. My heart will always have a spot for you. I love a miss you so much! Later Dude"

"Thinking of you"

"Hi Ben. Thanks for visiting me in my dream Saturday night. It really shook me up because it was so real...one of those when you wake up it takes a while to accept it was just a dream. It was awesome to see your face again, hear your voice, and get one last hug. You don't usually get to experience those things again with someone once you've lost them...but even if it was just in a dream, I'll take it! :) Love and miss you!!"
Nikki

"You're front in my mind again Ben. Unfortunately, a Marine from my town was killed in Iraq and it's bringing everything back up to the surface again. I helped out as much as I could, Ben. You would be so proud. We put on the dinner for the family after the funeral service at the AmVets post where I belong. It was amazing how everyone kicked in! It's such a good feeling knowing that people are still here supporting all of our military's efforts and sacrifices.

I was able to walk up and down the street, handing out big flags to all of the supporters that came out to send him off properly to the cemetary. I know how proud you would of been seeing the two firetrucks with their ladders arched over the road and all of the flags and yellow bows hanging off them. It was such a powerful sight Ben! It brought back so many sad memories, but I know the family appreciated everything we did for them, just as our family appreciated everything that was done for us in our time of need. We miss you, as always, but more importantly, remember how proud we are of you!!! Love,"
Ginger of Bay City, MI

"I thought I saw you today. You know how it is, catch someone out of the corner of your eye, think they look like someone, but when you really look they don't resemble that person at all!! But for a second my heart stopped, and I smiled...I'm glad I was able to feel that way.
It's been so long. And yet anytime Ozzy comes on my radio I turn it up and send a kiss to you - I know you're thinking of us, too. Godsmack, Zombie, so many songs will always remind me of you, and for some reason make me think of driving you to the motor pool to work...funny how that happens, huh?
So much different now. Hardly none of the same people "we" knew. Very sad, and disappointing...I hope I am the kind of person who can be there for whoever needs me, and never turn my back when I'm needed the most. I always thought I was a strong person, till I had to prove it. It's not easy to find out the people you surrounded yourself with aren't who you thought they were. Even after all this time I can still feel it... I thank God all the more for the ones who are still here. Little Man doesn't even know people anymore, and that makes me sad. But what can you do but roll with the punches. Learn from it. Life sucks, people suck. Why did it take so long to learn that? Oh yeah, because there was you!! I wish that was one thing I had learned from you, to be so confident...you are amazing.
Thank you for your hand in what we are, what we have now. I don't know that I could have made it this far otherwise. You would be so proud of some, I know it's what you would have wanted basically. Can't win them all, right? Experience and maturity, takes time, but some seem to get it quicker. We were good like that, huh?
Thinking of you..."

"Another year, but you cheated - you were supposed to get older first! But it's all good. Did you ever imagine you'd stay 27? That's okay, I've earned my years, and I'm proud to be my age. I hope I never get to be ashamed of it. The things you've missed...but you don't really miss them, do you? You are there, always. Missed beyond belief, but I guess that's just cause we're greedy, and selfish. Take care, and watch over those who need you. We Love You!!"

"To the friends and family of Ben,

I would like to honor and offer my sincere observance of Ben and what he ment to the people who loved him. I did not know Ben well. I am 27 now which I guess would make him about three years older than I am. I went to Tucson Junior Academy with Ben and Darlene and remember the intensity of community in which we all shared. Ben played and intergral part in my learning as did everyone there at the school, especially those who were older than I. I had a turbulent childhood and the stucture of school, our beliefs and the people around me who supported me through that time were of utmost importance in my life. What was truly important to me at that point in my life was sports and basketball. Ben and the older kids would always take us in to play, and that's what mattered most.
Reading the posts on this page was a nice reminder and educator on who Ben is and who he became. Thank you for that, and thank you to the family.
Kevin Gillooly III
kevin@otaproductions.com"
Kevin Gillooly III of Eugene, OR

"Happy Birthday Butthead!! I would have given you a hard time on being " old " and you would have made fun of yourself. Then you would have asked me for advice on dealing with old age. LOL I can't express how much I miss you. I hope that you know how happy I am. I now know that living my life does not mean letting you go. You go with me no matter what I do or where I go. I took that big step and found the courage to live my life to it's fullest. That is the hardest part, that and knowing you are are not a phone call away. But you are just a song away, a dream away, a happy thought away. A memory in my heart. I feel so blessed to have had you in my life, so much a part of me. I thank GOD I have faith in Him and I can do this, at times I was not so sure how to live without you, but I know you are here. I love Ben, NAAF."
Andrea of Carthage, MO

"You're in alot of minds again lately, as things are heating up in the sand box. Keep watch over them, and help ease their minds. We Love You!!"

"Hey Ben, It's hard to believe we've been missing you for three years now. But most times it seems like forever ago that we had to say good bye to you. I've learned and grown a lot in these last three years. The majority of it stems from the lessons I learned when we lost you. I will forever thank you for that, and yet I'd give it all back to have your here again and the family whole once more. I keep searching for something that will make it easier to finally accept, let go, and move on. But ultimately I feel guilty...I feel like if I move on that means I'm forgeting. So I'll keep trying and struggling with it. I guess these things aren't meant to be easy. I can't imagine the hurt Marcie and your sisters have gone through. I know Marcie has a tough exterior, I just hope she's willing to let us in if she ever needs it. Please continue to watch out for us. You seem to know just when to give us that little sign that you're still around when we need it the most. They say everyone has one moment in their life that defines them. Your death is it for me. I realize that I've never had the courage and made myself vulnerable enough to really have conviction in something like you did. You stood up for what you believed in, knowing that it put you in danger. I hope someday I will be that brave. I've learned that life is much too short to be consumed by petty things and that family and friends are all you really have, and all you really need. With that in mind, my New Year's resolution this year is to have more discipline and conviction in my life when it comes to my relationships, spirituality, health, fitness, etc. Thanks for everything. I pray for love and peace to surround everyone else who is still struggling with losing you. Sometimes I don't know why it's so hard. Hopefully when I reflect back during Christmas next year I can smile knowing that I've found a way to accept where life has guided us all and feel like everything is as it was meant to be in our family. Love you and miss you."
Nikki

"Three years have past and it is weird without you. Sometimes I have things I want to tell you or even talk to you about. I miss being able just to pick up the phone or even email you. This has been the hardest thing I have had to deal with. I am doing ok and knowing that you are around at times. I sense you here and love that feeling but at times I don't and miss you. My heart is and always will be empty. I just miss you! I was doing fine during the holidays and thought this year would be a good one but then it hits like a ton of bricks. You are in a better place and hope you enjoy. You are missed everyday. I love and miss you!Later dude...."

"3 years. Hard to believe, but here we are. It's been a hell of a trip, and here we are. Your son looks alot like you. All is well, carry on, we'll never forget!! Miss you, and Love You!!"

"Ben, it's getting closer and closer to that day. I can't believe it's been 3 years already! I remember it like it was yesterday. I know you are in a far better place now and you're watching over all of us. You know how much we all love and miss you!!!! We'll never forget the sacrifice you made for us. Thank You so much!!"

"I know that was you looking out for me the other day. It could've been a lot worse, but you made sure I was okay. I love you for that man! I still get upset when I think about not getting to say goodbye to you. I'm trying to be ok with it, but don't know if I'll ever be. Well, to quote our favorite movie "ILY, IAH & IAW""
YKW

"HappyThanksgiving! I know it is a day late but been busy working and doing school. I have not been on in awhile. I miss you too much at times to get on here and leave a message. I think about you more and more as the holidays come up. I think about you all the time what am I saying! You are always on my mind. It feels like it has been forever but then it feels like it happened today that I got the news.
I have been spending alot of time with Ben. It is fun to go over and see him and spend time with Marcie. I am glad I made the decision to move out here and get away from things that were tearing me away from reality. I know you are gone and that is so painful to realize. But that is part of the process I will have to go through the rest of my life. I thank you for the time I had with you and all the many memories that I have. That is one gift God gave me that I will treasure forever. I love and miss you dude! :)"

"Happy Turkey Day Butthead! I think back to all those dinners at grandma's house and all the fun we use to have. Then I think back 3 years ago and cry. I can't help but miss you and wish you were here. I know you are in sprit but it is not the same. Just to be able to see you and hug you, hear you tell a story that would have me laughing, that would be great. However I will always be thankfull for all of the memories I do have of you, and the 3 of us. We would get into such trouble just from you making us laugh. I love you Ben. NAF"
Andrea of Carthag

"Veterans Day 2003. We went to the parade, you were so proud in your DCU's...I can still see you saluting the flag...I wish I had gotten that picture that day. But that is the picture I have in my heart, the one I see when I think of you. I was so proud of you, and I still am. No matter what, or who, or whatever. You were the best you could be, and so happy with yourself and your life. Little did we know...what I wouldn't give for one more hug, one more minute, one more conversation, one more of your laughs, one more of your smiles, one more...Three years. Thinking of you, Loving you always, Missing you so much!!"

"Happy Veterans Day Butthead!! Thank you for all that you did for my/our freedom Ben. You gave it all. I miss you and love you Ben.

I want to thank all of our Veterans for everything that they have done. Thank you so much."
Andrea of Carthage, MO

"“Long you live and high you'll fly and smiles you'll give and tears you'll cry and all you touch and all you see is all your life will ever be.” - Pink Floyd

I miss you Ben. Thanks for being the most real person I've ever known. I love you like a brother."

"Hello Uncle Ben...I miss you a lot and i think about you every day. I feel so sorry for all of our family that you have left behind...im also sorry that i never had the chance to get to know you better...I love you and i will always miss you.."
Ashley Lynn of Swanzey, NH

"Oh Ben, it has been such a long time. I enjoyed the dream and It was so good to see you:) I miss you so much and reading these messages lets me know I'm not the only one.I don't feel so alone. You were such a great guy and made so many people laugh. I am so blessed that you were in my life. Hope to dream of you soon. You are always in my thoughts, heart and soul. AAF"
Andrea of Carthage, MO

"Thinking of you, as always!! Take care of those that need you, I'm sure you're watching over them already."

"Hey Ben, just wanted to write and say how much I've been thinking about you and missing you lately. Especially today with all the reminders of 9/11 five years ago...I remember calling you guys when it all happened and you were ready to go over and fight right away. Thank God for you brave ones. Granted, I selfishly wished then that you wouldn't go. But now I know that it was what you were meant to do. Thanks for everything and being one of those that rose up and became true heroes during such a tragic time. I think about how you touched the lives of so many Iraqi kids over there and it puts a smile on my face. I think of all the pictures of you signing "I love you" to Marcie and Benjamin and scratching "Marcie + Ben" or "true love always" on different things over there, and it puts a smile on my face. I think about how much fun it was to send care packages and letters to you and it puts a smile on my face. Thanks for being a great "brother" to me, husband to my sister, and father to Benjamin. I miss you so much. I love the little reminders every day that you're still here for all of us...like when Ozzy comes on the radio and catches me totally off-gaurd and my keychain locket with your picture in it just happens to fall open when I seem to be thinking about you the most. Please keep giving us those little signs that you're still here. I love and miss you!"
Nikki of Shepherd

"Ben, I know it's been a while since I've written on here, but I still check it every day. I think about you often still...more lately than not. I saw a Kenny Chesney concert live and when he sung "Who You'd Be Today" I just lost it. That song hits me so hard every time I hear it. I know you're in a great place now and I know we all have to continue on, but man, I miss you so bad sometimes! I know you're watching Benjamin and seeing how fast that little man is growing up. It's amazing, isn't it? Last time they came home it shocked me how much he's looking like you now. It's cute. ;) Well, thanks for listening. I know you are watching over us all. We miss you. I hope we're making you proud!! I love you!!"
Ginger of Bay City, MI

"Hey Ben! It's been awhile since I've stopped by, but I know you understand and know why. Anyways, I just wanted to let you know I heard this song earlier & the lyrics just reminded me of you SO much! Brought tears to my eyes. Just to let you know, a fellow Ozzy fan just came to where you are. I bet you guys would get along great, so show him the ropes. I have to deal with something hard soon, someone that I care a great deal for is going to Iraq. I know you'll watch over him for me, because I just can't go through that again. Miss you like crazy, can't believe it's been this long. AML,
YKW"

"It is never too late to share your thoughts. Ben never abided by the rule books-why should that change? Thank you for taking the time-it's nice to know he's still being thought of. Take care of you and yours, and feel free to drop back by anytime...we're always around!!"

"Ben,
I will NEVER forget the feeling I felt when I was I saw PVT Biskie walk into Operations and was told I would be your Squad Leader. I will never forget that I owe all my successes to you and our unbeatable team. I still have the picture we all took when we celebrated our Sapper Stakes victory and I will keep it until I am able to join you. Everyday you showed me more and more and you always challenged me to challenge you. I would have done anything to get to see you in action as a Team Leader and Squad Leader, there is NO doubt your soldiers would have been the best. Sorry it took me so long to write you, I still feel hurt inside when I think about what is happening overseas. I am sitting here trying to think of how to end this, and I see in bold "Fallen Heroes", and that word hero just sticks with me, because you have always been a hero to me! Your former "pain in the butt" Squad Leader from the Bulldogs"
SFC Kevin Wanner of Fort Leonardwood, Mo

"Hey Biskie its been a long time bro, and I still use your line "cheese and fries", and I know you still use mine, "you took the shrimp". Anyway just found this site and thought I should say a few.Your were and always will be a good friend, soldier,father, and husband.I did dream about you a few times it was so real we were drinking beers and talking outside your house and I knew it was a dream and that you werent really there. I always told you how I can realize in my dream that Im asleep. You assured me everything was going to be ok so I held on to you and I didnt want to let you go so you held me and said its ok and then I woke up. Marcie Im so sorry I never dropped you a line, but trust me I feel for you and your family I hope you and little Ben are doing great maybe will see each other again Joanna and I would like that. You always have a friend in NYC anytime you want. bro1459@bop.gov send an email if you would like. He was one of a kind and I will always be proud and honored to have served with him and have him as a friend. Take it easy."
HOTROD of Queens, NYC

"We think of you everyday. Time is no object, you've always been such a big presence... All is well, that matters, anyways. Time changes things, people change, life goes on, we just gotta roll with it. Hard to believe how much time has passed already. I'm sure you're thought of just as much, if not more, than any other time. Keep in touch, we will always need you!!"

"Been thinking about you a lot lately Ben. I miss you. Please remember to visit us still. I know it's been a few years now, but we still need to feel you in our lives to keep us grounded. I miss you so much and will never forget."

"Happy 4th of July Ben! We love and miss you more than ever!!"
Nikki of Shepherd, MI

"Marcie and Ben Jr, You are still in our prayers and we think of you often. Hope all is going well. Take Care"
Jason Fritz of New Cumberland, PA

"Marcie-
I was just up late and looking around at some of Gavins sites and found Bens. I thought I would stop and pay my respects to him and to you. You are an amazing person. I think about you often these days, wondering to myself how you managed to keep putting one foot in front of the other. It is hard to believe it has been over two years for you and over a month for me. I pray for you and your son every night. I hope I can be as strong a person as I see you to be.
Carole"
Carole Reinke of St. Rober, MO

"I can't tell you enough how much we love and miss you. Thank you so much for everything you fought for. You truely believed in your mission. You will NEVER be forgotten. I Love You!!"
Ginger of Bay City, MI

"Happy Memorial Day Ben. We love and miss you so much, especially days like today."
Nikki

"Memorial Day 2006
Thank you for the sacrifice you made for peace and security of all."
Kathy Rose of Ankeny, Iowa USA

"Your little man turned 9 today, can you believe it?? You sure can tell who his daddy is..."

"Miss You!! Love You!!"

"This is to the soldier who wrote the "Your Brothers in the Fightin' Fifth! of Ft. Leonard Wood, MO". I should have written this when Marcie told me about what you had written. I thought about it for two months every day and knew I had to write something. And now it has been even a few more months, I should not have waited so long to do this.
Two things really bother me about what you wrote: first, you didn't bother to sign your name. The second, you included the other soldiers of the 5th EN BN, like it was something you all decided together - to write that paragraph. Don't pull the other soldiers into this. I find it utterly unbelievable that you would write what you did. I know for a fact that whoever you are, you never bothered to call Marcie to see how she was doing, nor did you stop over to see her and Benjamin. None of the soldiers did. Some of that, I can understand, it is hard on everyone. 5th EN BN Soldiers lost a great friend and brother. They don't know what to say to Marcie. Just say hi, how are you, what can I do for you, or say that you didn't know what to say! For you to write "it doesn't matter that the woman you thought would love you forever has not done right by you" is shocking! Had you taken the time to call her even once, you might have found out how she struggled to carry on and that she will love Ben until the day she dies. She will always think about him, miss him and wish for what will never be! I have decided that you didn't know Ben very well at all. He would have wanted Marcie to be happy, to take care of their son and to go on. I assume that you have never been married, otherwise I pity your wife. God forbid, but if something happened to you, you expect your wife to grieve alone for the rest of her life to prove that she "loved" you. Friend, that is not love! Love is wanting the very best for your spouse, wanting them to be happy and healthy, even if it is no longer possible for you to provide that. I believe that Ben is very happy with Marcie and possibly had something to do with Marcie meeting, falling in love and getting remarried. I am personally very happy for her and Benjamin for their new family. It is wonderful to see her smile and laugh. Which she did so much with Ben. I saw Marcie and Ben, when Ben was home on his mid-tour leave. They didn't see me. They were walking down the sidewalk towards Benjamin's school to pick him up. I almost blew the horn, but decided to leave them alone. There they were, talking, laughing and holding hands as they walked toward the school. He SO loved her! And she SO loved him. It was so obvious! Marcie will love Ben until the day she dies, and being remarried has nothing to do with that. She has a huge heart and the love for this man that she is now married to, has nothing to do with her love for Ben. Both are lucky men.
I am sure by now, you are sorry you wrote what you did. Too bad you decided to put that in a public place for all to see your ignorance. If you feel you would like to talk to me, call! Better yet, call my husband! As he agrees with me! "No one can know what Marcie has been through unless you walked in her shoes. Ben would have wanted her to go on and be happy with her life" is what my husband said when I told him about what you had written. Ben loved life, loved being a solier and LOVED his family.
Sorry Marcie for the hurt this all caused you and your families. Everyone loved Ben! I am proud of you! God bless the USA and the 5th EN BN."
Cindy Cline of Waynesville, MO

"Hello butthead,
I miss you. Been thinking of you alot. I am 27 now. I just remember you calling me for my birthday when you were in Korea. That was so awesome. I was so lucky to have a brother like you. It is not fair but I am dealing with it! one day at a time! love and miss ya!"

"Biskie-
Hey stranger! Haven't been to this site in awhile and felt like I needed to stop by and say hi. Every time I read people's comments, it somehow makes me feel a little better about missing you. I suppose it's from all the loving comments from everyone. I'm sure you know what your death taught me - live life with as little regret as possible. I've been doing so much to make that happen & have been happier. I'm sure you'll be happy to know that I'm getting a tat in your memory. I knew you'd like that : ) I think of you fairly regularly as I'm sure I always will. Thanks for letting me know you were thinking of me the other day. AML."
YKW

"Missing you so much, loving you so much more!!"

"It's been a while since I've written on here, but I read it every day. I've been thinking of you so much lately Ben. Maybe that's why you visited me in my dreams last night. Thank you for that. It's good to know you're doing so good. You looked great. Maybe one of these days you'll still get to show me that armadillo. ;) I miss you!!"
Ginger of Bay City, MI

"BEN,
I can't believe its been so long. I remember the very last time that I saw you, talked to you, and gave you a hug goodbye. Greg and me have been thinking about you alot since you've been gone. We miss you. You will always be in our hearts.
MARCIE,
I would like you to know, that although I regret not being able to be a better friend to you when you needed me the most, I am thinking about you and little man everyday day. I heard about your new found love, and I wish you the best of luck. I know Ben would have wanted you and Ben Jr. to be happy. And you of all people deserve that.
I will never forget!
lol"
Maria of Plato, Missouri

"Hey Butthead!! I know it has been a while, but here I am. I miss you so much and think of you every day. Thank you so much for being my best friend. Without you I would have never learned how to laugh or see the funny side of life. Can you come and visit me soon? I have so much I want to talk to you about. I love you and keep us safe."
Andrea of Lebanon, MO

"Hey Ben, I watched your memorial video last night for the first time in a while. It brought back so many good and sad memories. I miss you more than I thought was possible. Keep bringing us signs that you're still with us. It means more than you know. I'll hold on to the memories till we meet again. Love and Miss you!"
Nikki

"Thinking of you!!"

"Hello Butthead,
Today was hard. I lost it at work. There so many pvts in their uniforms and so many looked liked you and I had to take a second clance. I called Andrea and she helped. But when I went back to the floor I heard someone say Suck it up (not to me) and I heard you saying it. Then someone came in and bought alot of hotwheels!!! That made me laugh. Then a little boy gave bunny ears to his mom. You are here in spirit and to bring a smile to my face and I want to thank you for that. It will always be us together forever no matter life or death. I am stronger each and everyday. Just knowing you and being your sister is a honor! Thank you for being the best brother I could of asked for!! Love and miss ya lots!
Later..."
Darlene Butthead of Lebanon, MO

"Family of the Fifth,

I'm also serving in Iraq, and I would wish that you could sit down for one selfless minute of your day to ask yourself one question. My cousin's life was taken and all you could think of is Marcie and her happiness for Ben Jr. Did you get to come home without leaving something behind? Please stop thinking of yourself and really think of what we in the army are really here for? I will always honor my family,and the things that we have done no matter what the distance is. You really disrespected Ben, not Marcie. Do you really honor him, or your greed? My unit is a family and I wish the best for all of them. I truely hope that I will never have to serve with any of you, because how could I count on you! Remember this is a memorial for Ben. You are to write messages, not hating on others. If you have any questions and want to disrespect anyone, please feel free and email me. Please don't do it here!!! My email is joan.m.hollars@us.army.mil"
Ben's cousin

"Ben,
Ben, not a day goes by that I don't think of the things that you did for your family. The first day that I met Marcie was at Gradma Box funeral. Ben Jr. is just like you and you knew the love that Marcie has for you and you will never be forgotten!! Uncle Allen told me alot about this place and I feel like I see you everyday. I remember all the time's at Grandmas house when she'd always have the big gatherings, boy all of us cousins got in trouble. Family will always be family and never look down upon each other for the decision that we make in life to make our children's lives better. I honor you so much. With all love,"
SGT Joan Hollars of Taji, Iraq

"Just wanted to say I miss you! Thinking of you all the time. I am doing ok. Just work and will be going to school. Andrea and I have been having some good laughs. love to tease her like you would. But she is YOUR sister!! J/K LOL love and miss ya!"
Butthead

"hello butthead,
Can't sleep. Thinking of you again and miss you so much. Not sure how to go one with out you here. But I am doing it one way or another. Andrea is very helpful. I am going back to school. It will cost alot and hopefully I can get grants and for sure I will have lots of student loans but it is worth it in the long run. I will be going in to social work. helping out young kids. we did experience alot growing up and stopped alot of chains. I want to help other kids know that there is a way out. I am so glad that I had you and Andrea. I miss you!! I can not say that enough. It will never be the same again. But it will go on. Time heals all wounds. They may heal but with a scab. My heart is wounded and will not be hole again till I see you again. I love and miss you.
Later...."
Butthead

"It has been awhile for me. I miss you lots and more lately. I have been thinking alot and just need some advice. Need a message from you in some way. Happy Belated 30th Birthday! I thought about you all day. Love and miss you lots!"

"Hey Ben, We're thinking about you tonight. Just took a moment to read through you website again and it brings back so many memories. I miss you so much. I don't care how old this website gets, I need it. I feel like I can connect to you here. I love you and miss you so much. I love the relationship you and my sister had and how much you meant to each other. I learned so much from you. Loosing you has defined who I am. I know that sounds silly, but I think all of us go thorugh some kind of event on life that really defines who we are, and your death is it for me. It has really changed how I value family and time spent with friends. I love and miss you so much. I hope you know how much you mean to me. Thanks for teaching me so much. I'll never forget you or stop loving you."
Nikki of Shepherd, MI

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! Wow, the big 3-0, what an old man!! You wouldn't have been able to handle it, you about flipped at 25!! We Love You!!"

"Happy Birthday Ben! I wish you were here for me to say that to in person. I love you and miss you so much. Just thinking about the day when we can all eventually be together again puts a smile on my face. I think about you so much. Love you, miss you!"
Nikki of Shepherd, MI

"Happy Birthday Butthead!! You would be 30 today. You know I would have given you a hard time about that. I feel like I have missed so much without you here and then again maybe I would not have changed in the way that I have if it were not for you. I am still striving to make each day count. I miss and love you more that you know!
NAF"
Andrea of Lebanon, MO

"Marcie my friend, It has been forever since I have spoken to you. You moved off base and I moved here to North Carolina. You and your family have been on my mind alot lately. I should have contacted you a while back. I am sorry I haven't. I was thinking about you and decided to look up Ben's name and found this site. I want you to know for what it is worth, I am happy for you and little Ben. I know what kind of Mother and Wife you are and so do you. Don't allow others to judge that in you. You are responsible for yours and Ben's future and if you felt this man worthy of marriage than I say Praise God. From all I have heard about Ben the last thing he would have wanted you to do was end up an old withered widow. Live life, raise your son with all the love you can and you will honor Ben's Memeory. You are forever in my thoughts and prayers. Your friend always, Jenny"
Jenny Browning of Camp Lejeune, NC USA

"Sgt Ben W. Biskie
My Son Dec. 24 2003
Its almost 2 years and it has gone by fast. Ben I miss you so much. The talks of course, your advise, you always knew when I was down or upset. You knew me like a book. Sometimes I pick up the phone without thinking, then it hits me. I am so proud of you. You did a wonderful thing in life, school, jobs services, husband and father, which is the greatest of them all. Marcie (I rememberd the E!)is a loving person. She loved everything in life. Ben Jr. of course, like his dad and growing fast. I miss your smile and hopeful you got that from me, your laughter from the bottom of your toes and were never ashamed of saying I Love You and I miss that. You were my rock and my hero. I do lose it once in awhile and will for a long time to come and its hard. Your family and friends and so many miss you. Love You. We will all never be the same again. I could go on but got to go. Tell Grandma box we all love and miss her so much also. Me, Andrea and Darlene are a family again.
I Love You, Ben My son
Della and Guba "dad" Be all you can be and you did it!"
Mom of Ohio

"I love you Marcie. And I love you Benjamin. And I support everything you're doing to take care of your family--as would anyone who truly knew Ben and the love and relationship you shared while he was here. You deserve every happiness that comes your way. Find faith in the support of those of us who know you best. I love you."
Nikki of Shepherd, MI

"Isn't it amazing how so many people think they know exactly what Ben would want right now? These people who are implying that he wouldn't like the most recent turn of events must not really know him at all. The Ben I knew loved everyone and didn't have a mean bone in his body. He would NEVER wish his widow to never be happy and never marry again. And he would DEFINITELY not ever wish his son grow up without a father figure in his life. Don't you people think that Marcie and Ben discussed the possibility of him not coming home from the war? Don't you think they would of made a plan together of what Marcie should do in the case this awful tragedy took place? Have faith and let her live her own life. Marcie is a strong and courgeous person and she knows how to make the right decisions in her life. I would imagine you are not doing Ben proud at all by making the accusations and awful comments you are."

"Between you and me, we both know how it is. I'm so tired, you're all I care about. Forget the stupid stuff, I know that you know, so that's all I need. Why does it have to be so hard? Why can't people accept it, live and let live? Why do others care so much about what is or isn't done, or how, or ??? I will be more than happy to step back and let someone else stand in my place. Just for a little while. Maybe then they'd see it isn't all they think it is. It isn't all it's cracked up to be. There is far too much, I give up. I don't want to deal anymore. I don't remember signing the contract that said I'm going to be perfect, I'll adhere to everything everyone expects of me, that I'll be a Saint. I have never been, why would I start now? I am me, and you were always happy with that. That's all I need. Just let me be, that's all I ask. Just let me try to carry on, try to live the rest of my life, and take care of our son as best I can.
Thanks for all the messages, support and otherwise, the past two years. Sometimes it was all that kept me sane. Just when I thought the worst was over, along comes the criticism. I can accept that. Should have figured it was coming. Thanks for not letting me down. But I think I've had enough. I have taken about as much as I can, and more than I want to. Please feel free to continue to write your messages, but I think I've gotten all the use out of this site as I could have. I am so thankful for it, and all of you. You will never know important this was to me, and how many times this was all I had, the only thing that seemed to keep me going. My public diary, my counceling and my only link. 8 years, I wouldn't have changed a thing!! We were so happy. You will always have a special place in my heart. But you know that! Now, Always, and Forever!!"

"Happy 2nd Butthead Day Ben!! For those of you in Iraq, God Bless you and wishing you a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. Be safe. Thank you for all that you do. And thanks for all of you who have written for the past 2 years, your words give me hope and a comfort I could never explain. I am so glad Ben had so many friends that knew him and loved him. Happy Holidays everybody!"
Andrea of Lebanon, MO

"Hi Ben! Two years down only 70 or so to go right? LOL. Want to wish you a Merry Christmas and hope God has a santa hat for you up there. I am sure you make him laugh. I know things are not how you want them to be but give it time and things are sure to change. Your son has a lot of people looking out for him, he will always be safe. Take care and know that we love and miss you!!"

"Ben,
On this 2 year anniversary you will be in our hearts every minute of this day. We miss everything about you everyday!"
of Fort Wood

"Hey Ben, I can't believe it's been two years as of tomorrow. Sometimes it seems like forever since you left us, and sometimes it seems like just yesterday that we got that call that broke our hearts. I think about you a lot, especially this time of year. It's good when I can feel you with us, watching over us. Don't ever stop that! We need that now more than ever. Things are different without you, but we could have never planned on this. There's no way to know where life leads you until you're there I guess. And everyone thinks they know what should happen from here on, and what the best thing to do is, and the best way to handle things is...but until we've walked a mile in yours and Marcie's shoes I'd say we have no idea. Benjamin is doing great. He's so funny and so sharp. I'm so proud of you and Marcie...you did good with him. He's a special little boy. You taught him how to care for people and treat them with respect. He's a joy to be around and we love him very much. Thanks for everything. Take care. Merry Christmas. I miss you!"
Nikki of Shepherd, MI

"Well, here it is, almost two full years later. I think about you every day Ben. Sometimes it is so hard, and sometimes there is nothing you can do but smile and laugh. I know you're around and have your hands in many of the things going on lately. Thank you for that. No one would of ever thought this two years ago, but I actually think they're going to be ok. I am so grateful for that. Thank you Ben for everything. You will never, ever, be forgotten."
I Love You!! ~Ginger

"almost 2 years... I can't believe it has been that long. You will never be forgotten. People will know the man you were, the man you wanted to be for your son, and the man that paid the ultimate price. You will always be our brother."
One of your brothers of Iraq (again)

"Miss you so much. Need your help now more than ever and you are not here. Please come to me some way and let me know what I am doing is ok. I feel so much hurt, confusion, and anger. I feel you are fading away from so many. This is not what you wanted and I know this but I can not do more than I am. Need you to be here for all those who will need you this Christmas. It will be 2 years and it is still not fair. I miss you and love you still. My heart is in so much pain. Please help me. I want to see your smile and let me know it will be ok. you will never be forgotten and through me others will know your story and you will be a hero forever."

"Thinking of you!! Not that there are times you're not thought of, but now and then it's good to know!! It sometimes surprises me to hear from someone, out of the blue. It's nice to know you're not forgotten! It makes me proud to hear someone talk about you, or to read new messages here. I know we think of you always, but its glad to know we aren't the only ones!! You were something else, it's hard to live up to you sometimes, and to some I never will. We complimented eachother well, we were never the same. Did we give that impression? Life hasn't turned out like any of us imagined, all we have is to make the best of it. I'm trying, and doing the best I can. I'm happy, so far so good. I know you're around, and I can only hope things are going as you planned. Take care, Ozzman - You will be loved forever!!"
* me *

"Dear Ben, Well it has almost been 2 years and the thought is heart breaking. I wonder how I have made it without talking to you and hearing your funny stories. I talk to you all the time and I think that helps, sometimes I can hear your voice in my heart and I smile. I think of all the great times we had when we were younger and how we grew closer as we got older and were not afraid to say I love you. That bond is still with me and I carry it close to remind me of the gift God gave me and how special you were and are. I miss you so much that words can not express my sadness or how alone I feel without you. I can only hope you are happy where you are and know how proud I am of you. I still can't wait to see you, visit soon. I love you now and forever. ARNF Merry Christmas and Happy New Year Everybody!"
Andrea of Lebanon, MO

"Hey Marcie,
We just wanted to send a big CONGRATULATIONS to you and your new husband. We think you deserve to be happy. Wish we could have been with you but Vegas is just too far. Wishing you, Alan and Benjamin jr. all the best."
Your friends of Missouri

"Hey Ben, It's been a while since I've written. I hate to write when I need something, but I need you now. Please just be with us this Thanksgiving and let us know that everything is all right. Please be with us to drown out the drama and show us what it's really all about. Please be with us to calm any of our worries, and to ensure us that you're still with us and we don't have to ever worry about loosing you. I keep thinking back to about this time two years ago and it just seems to get harder and harder to think about. I try not to dwell on the sadness and anger, but sometimes it seems like it was just yesterday that we lost you and some people still don't value the family they have and the moments and good memories there are yet to make. Haven't we all forever learned a lesson in your death? I just pray that I feel your presence this Thanksgiving and that we can truly enjoy the upcoming holidays the way they are meant to be. I love you and miss you with all my heart and will always be proud to tell your story. Thanks for everything you were and continue to be. I miss you so much."

"I miss you so much! I want you to know that what we have done to break the chains of our past. It will continue. Your our son is so big. He misses you. He told me the other day. You will always be around in spirit & never forgotten. This is going to be 2 yrs and it seems like it was just yesterday it all happened. You do need to visit soon. Just need to see your face and smile. I love and miss you lots!!
Later....."
Dalene

"Dear Ben,
Hi Butthead! I don't think you know how much I miss you nor how often I wish you were here. Even if were just for the day, just to talk and joke around. Things are very different with you not here. The holidays are coming and I'm not sure how I will do.I wanted to see you so much 2 years ago at this time. Fate was not on my side.I always think of you, you are never far from my mind and you have never left my heart. I love you. NAF
Thank you CPT. Michael for what you wrote and for all you and others have done. God Bless."
Andrea of Lebanon, MO

"To: "Your Brothers in the Fightin' Fifth! of Ft. Leonard Wood, MO"

Your message was in the poorest tradition of our service and dishonored yourself and SGT Biskie. Please contact me on AKO if you have any question soldier. Before you head off to war again it would be best if you get some things in order. I recommend speaking to a chaplain or leaders you trust, as your current path is very questionable.

Ma'am and family, please accept my apology for this soldier’s statement."
CPT Michael Nienhaus of "Pentagon, Virginia"

"Hi Ben. Happy Veteran's Day!!! Thank you so much for all you have given to protect me and my family. I went to a homecoming last night here in Bay City for some soldiers that were in Iraq for a little over a year. It was heart wrenching, but I am so glad I was there to witness it all. I love you and miss you so much still.

Until next time."
Ginger of Bay City, MI

"Ben, With Veterans day upon us, thoughts of your service flood the minds of all who knew you. You were an outstanding man who knew how to absorb life. You have been missed these last 2 years and will continue to be missed for eternity!
Your brothers in the Fifth will need you to look after them while they are back in country, I know you will do your best.
Marcie and Ben Jr...You are always in our thoughts and prayers!"
of Fort Wood

"To the brothers of the fighting fifth-
It seemed as though a thoughtless comment made by someone within your group, implied that Marcie wasn't honoring Ben. That is not only entirely false, but it is incredibly hurtful and rude. Just because Marcie is moving forward in life (which is EXACTLY what Ben would've wanted), doesn't mean she's not been honoring his memory. Whoever posted that message, should be ashamed of themself and know that YOU have let Ben down by saying such a hurtful thing! Moving on doesn't mean forgetting!"
A friend of Ben's

"Ben-
Been thinking of you - more than usual recently. Not sure what has brought that on. I still have those moments where I'll just think of something connected to you and cry. I had those pictures of you at my house out. It's hard to remember how young and carefree we were back then. They're the only tangible thing I have to remember you by. I had a dream the other night that I died, and you were there waiting for me. I woke up and was happy I had seen your face. Well, I'm sure I'll see you again in my dreams. AML."
YKW

"You are about to be very busy again, in the near future. Many to watch out for, and look after. Best of luck, it isn't an easy job-but I know you take it seriously. Yes, you are an awesome Guardian Angel!! We Love You, with all our hearts!!"
Now. Always, and Forever!!

"Thanks for visiting me this morning Ben. You must of known how bad I needed it. I know you are at peace with the progress of life. I'm so glad that my sister and nephew have such a wonderful guardian angel as you. You are the best. I love you man!!"
Ginger of Bay City, MI

"I miss you my brother"
SGT LJ of Salem MO

"Hello Butthead,
Yes it has been awhile. I think about you everyday. I had a dream you were home and I wanted to hug you to make sure it was real. But I guess you just want to say HI. I love and miss you so much!! My heart is in pain and to see others disrespecting you and your family you had dreamed about having. You were the one that always told me that Marcie liked plants instead of flowers. You would tell the guys you were with that your anniversary was coming and they said just to get her flowers and she will love them. you knew her so well and you said no, a plant. Just in the same way she knew you. I know that this is meant to be.I have been her for a couple of months and I see how she and Ben Jr. are happy. She is happy and your son is in good hands once again. You would not expect her to stop her life to love a dead man but to move on with life and love again. You will always be in our hearts, mind and life. Thanks again for your sacrifice for all of us. I am greatful for all who have died for us to be free. I miss you so much!! With 2 yrs coming up it is hard to believe. This is hogwash!!! ;) Love and miss ya!!! Later Bro....."
Buttnugget

"To the "Brothers in the Fighin' Fifth",
I am sorry you feel the way you do. I wish I knew what I did so wrong in your eyes to warrant such strong feelings. By the way, where were you all when we needed you? I am glad you feel so righteous to pass such a judgement. I wouldn't wish anyone to walk a step in my shoes, let alone a mile, not even you. I truely hope you understand someday, but until then, I just want you to know that I sleep well at night. I know that I have done the best I could have done, and am still making the attempt. I know I am not perfect, thank you for bringing that to my attention once again.
I wish you all well on this journey you're about to take yet again. I have kept up with what has been going on with the 5th, although it hasn't been easy. I sometimes wonder why I care so much, still, but I guess old habits die hard. So much for the "family".
Thanks again for writing, and I'm glad you feel secure enough to state your opinion. I'm just sorry you couldn't find it in you to say it to me. Oh, and just so you know, Benjamin Jr is doing well, thanks for asking!!"
Marcie - the one who loves you forever, no matter what of Lost in Misery-yet again

"To those who posted the recent message this morning to Ben, hopefully you will read this before you are deployed. It's so good to hear of others that share how we feel about Ben. He brought laughter to everyone he met and that was one of his best qualities. But by far his most amazing quality was his devotion and unequivocal love for his family. That is why it shocked and sickened me to read your comment about how "the woman you thought would love you forever has not done right by you." How dare you make that assumption that Ben would not be happy with the current circumstances in the family he left behind. He loved them both so much and would do anything to ensure that they were happy now; I can guarantee that. For you to try to place blame on her shoulders, is in fact dishonoring Ben and his commitment to his family’s continued happiness in his passing. I thank God that those that really know Ben know that that is not the case, and can continue forward with clear consciences knowing that Ben is still with us and with his family in the journey we take every day to continue this life since he made his sacrifice. I pray you realize these things and can truly honor Ben’s memory and devotion to his family. I wish you safety in your next deployment in Iraq; I pray none of your families have to go through what we’ve been through."
Nikki of Shepherd, MI

"Hey Ben,
We're getting ready to deploy again and alot of us have been thinking alot about you lately. We miss having you in the 5th, you gave us laughter when we weren't finding alot to laugh about. With all that has happened we all want you to know you died for what we believe in, it doesn't matter what some lady who is in pain over the lose of her son is saying, and it doesn't matter that the woman you thought would love you forever has not done right by you. We know that you are a hero. We all feel angry because you deserve better than all these things. But while we are over in Iraq next month we want you to know we will be thinking about you and the great sacrifice you made for this awesome country!!"
Your Brothers in the Fightin' Fifth! of Ft. Leonard Wood, MO

"Hey Ben, just wanted you to know that I still think about you all the time, and all the fun times we had together as kids (or when we HAD to make it fun; all the weeds we pulled!!!) You are still missed!"
misty milks of North Carolina

"Hey Ben, can you believe some of the drama in the world today? We have people like Cindy Sheehan who say they're standing up for the soldiers, when really it's all about her hatred for the president and they forget about honoring the soldiers all together. And then there's drama amongst those of us that should know better, and I know you know what I mean. It's sad. It's amazing how people decide to reveal their true colors all on their own. I miss you so much. So many things lately have brought your memory and the memories of that Christmas when we lost you to the front of my mind. It hurts so much, but at the same time I can't explain how happy and grateful I am to have known you and been so close to you, even if it that time was cut short. I'll always believe you're a hero--no matter what the protesters say about your mission and your commander in chief, and no matter how many years have passed since you made your sacrifice. I've experienced true patriotism, true heroism, true sacrifice, and undying love--all through you. Thank you for those new experiences that I would have never known. I miss you. I hope we're all putting on a good show for you down here. I can't wait to see your smile again. If there is anything you can do from up there to make it a little easier down here for those of us still having a hard time--we'd appreciate it. I'll talk to you again soon..."

"Well, they're at it again. I am sure it is breaking so many hearts up there, all these anti-war protests. Where do they draw the line? They say they support the troops, but then protest what they're doing-how can you make that distinction? I know you all can see, and know, those of us who support you, heart and soul. Those of us who knew how you felt and we still feel, we'll carry on secure in the knowledge that we know how you felt for real, and what you believed in. I wish more had asked instead of assuming they know how it must have been. No one can change my mind, or those of the others who knew you, and talked with you, and know how you felt. We have always been so proud of you, always will be. We feel the same of the president. It hurts so bad to see this, and I know so many are falsly representing their soldiers. Rest in peace, My Love, we'll back you forever!!"
*me*

"HI BUTTHEAD! I SHOULD BE IN MISSOURI IN LESS THAN 3 WEEKS. THEN I CAN BUG YOUR WIFE AND SON. AND I GET TO BE WITH OUR " FAVORITE " SISTER. LOL I CAN'T WAIT TO GET OUT OF ARIZONA! IT WARMS MY HEART WHEN I HEAR BEN TALK ABOUT YOU OR SAY SOMETHINGS ABOUT YOU. I JUST HAVE TO SMILE AND ENJOY THAT MOMENT. YOU WERE AND ARE SO VERY SPECIAL, NOT JUST TO ME BUT TO A LOT OF OTHERS. BE WITH US AS WE MAKE OUR TRIP, KEEP US SAFE. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART AND I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH."
ANDREA of TUCSON, AZ

"Are you satisfied with how things are turning out? Alot of changes, but you've had your hand in things! We miss you. Thankfully it isn't as heartbreaking as it used to be. We will always miss you, but more smiles now. Benjamin has even started talking about you more. We're getting there. He's a stubborn one, that son of ours-too much like you sometimes!! He is my life, and I couldn't live without him. Thank you so much for him. Take it easy, honey, things are moving along here. Thanks for everything!!
WE LOVE YOU!!"
*me*

"Hi Ben,
It has been a long time since I've written to you. I think about you every day. Some days, like last week, it is just so hard. Too hard. Sometimes I feel guilty that I am still not able to completely come to terms with it. I guess I'm not that strong. Some days I can comprehend that you are in a better place and are needed for higher things than any of us can understand. I miss you. I still feel guilty for not coming down to see you in November when you were home. At least this way Marcie and Benjamin were able to spend more time with you. Time marches on, I guess. I am so happy for them that they are able to still find happiness after all they've been through. They truly are very blessed. Just know that I'm always thinking of you. If you have time for a visit, I would love it. It's been a while."
Ginger of Bay City, MI

"Hey ben
I know its ben a long time but i just wanted to say hi! i listened to a song the other day and it made me think of you! I miss you very much! every time I play dominoes with my parents i think of you!"
Ben cerda of waynesville

"Hey Ben,
It's been a while since I've written so I thought I'd check in with you. I miss you so much. Some days something so simple can make you realize all over again how much it hurt to loose you. I went to a concert last weekend and saw a man in the audience who I swore was Ozzy himself, Ginger did too. For some reason I automatically thought of you. If that was your way of saying "Hi," then right back at you! I got to see Benjamin last weekend, holy crap he's growing fast! He just got glasses and looks like a little man now. :) You'd be so proud of him and how mature he is. It was hard to say good-bye when they left because I'd give anything to have him here every day. There just too many things that won't allow me to pack up and move out there, so for now I'll settle for their visits, however few and far between they might seem! I could never see them enough!! I think we're all going to get to spend Thanksgiving together this year. Even though there's a hole in all of us now with you gone, I know we still have so much to be thankful for. I'm so thankful for the way you've touched all of our lives and changed them for the better! You're one of the people you meet in life that you never forget, even in death. I love you for that. Thanks for meaning so much to me and my family. You're part of everything we do now. Losing you really changed my life. I know it sounds dramatic, but it's changed the way I take in every second of every day. It's one shitty way to learn a lesson, but what can you say. I love you and miss you Ben!!!"
Nikki of Missing you in Michigan

"Hi Butthead! Holy sheep poop I miss you. I think of you everyday and hope that you are happy with how I am doing. I try to be happy and laugh like you and to be brave. I know this will not last forever and I will see you again. It is just hard to wait. Even though we did not live in the same state we were so close and I feel that void so often. Things are good for me right now so don't worry. I love you."
Andrea of Tucson, AZ

"Time marches on! School is starting in weeks again, already. Life is changing, and is so busy, hard to recognize it as mine sometimes!! It's good having your sister here, less places for you to have to be watching out for everyone!! We're working on the next, wish us luck!!
I just wanted to check in, see how things were, make sure you knew we still think of you, always!! Life is a funny thing, isn't it? You just never know...

We Love You,
Now, Always, and Forever,"
Me and Jr

"Happy 4th of July Ben. It's all about you now. It's a chance for us all to honor you and the sacrifice you made--and to thank your family too, because they too paid the ultimate sacrifcice. I miss you. I think our world would be a little brigher and easier to take if you were still here with us making us laugh. I love you and miss you."

"Hey Ben,
We're right into summer now and everyone has been so busy. Just wanted to let you know we haven't forgotten about you. How could we? I think of you almost every day. Some days it's just second nature, and some days just a song, or something I hear on the news will trigger a memory, some good, some very sad. I love you and miss you and will think of you this 4th of July. I remember it was only two years ago that Ging and I took some goofy pictures of us while we were camping for the 4th and some pictures of the fireworks to send to you in Iraq so you could have some fun for the 4th of July over there too. It wasn't too hard to put a smile on your face--so I'm sure they did some good. :) Thanks again for all youve done. I love you and miss you more than you know."
Nikki of Shepherd, MI

"Happy Father's Day!!

Wow, our second one...it's hard to believe we're on our second anniversary of everything already!! Seems only moments, seems a lifetime. We've got someone taking up the slack, Benjamin really needed it. As I'm sure you know!! You are still, and will always be, a very important part of ALL our lives. Never far from our thoughts, we talk about you often, too. I am pretty sure you'd like him, I hope you're happy with our choice. It's been hard, trying to figure out how everything fits now, but I think we're doing alright. Learning as we go, and all that. Keep in touch, man of mine, we will always need you!! You were an awesome dad, we will never forget that!! We know how important that was to you, and how seriously you took the title/job. You made so many so proud!! Which is why it's so hard to live without you..."
Now, Always, and Forever, Marcie

"Hi Fish, Remember that trip to San Diego when the van broke down on the way home? That was quite a while ago. We made some new friends then too. Mom and I will be heading back stateside in October to stay. Even though I may not outwardly show it, I do grieve about you. I miss you a lot."
Dad of Germiston, Gauteng, Republic of South Africa

"SSG Chris,
Thanks so much for your message. It is so nice to hear that Ben hasn't been forgotten, even from years ago. I am sure he is proud to be on your shoulder, he was an "ink" man himself- I'm sure he got a kick out of it!! As always, you are more than welcome in my home at any time, no matter where we may be!! Once a friend, always a friend. No matter how long or how far... I am so glad you had the pleasure of meeting him, he was an amazing person!! I just wish more had the opportunity, and I hope his son will always remember!!
Take care, and feel free to keep in touch!
missingmygi03@yahoo.com"
Marcie

"Hey Big Brother,
Well, we made it back from our D.C. trip. They really did a great job on the 'Faces of the Fallen' exhibit. It was great to be in your presence again. What an honor for you to have a special exhibit in Arlington Cemetary. It sure was a hard one to take, especially watching Marcie and Benjamin paying their respects, but it was what my heart needed. You are still with us every single day. I am so glad that I had the chance to go down and see your exhibit in person. You deserve that and so much more!! I Love You Ben!!!"
Ginger

"Hey Ben, and ecspecially you Marcie,
It has been a lot of years since i first arrived to the 5th. Ben was there helping me adjust to a new unit and a new life. There wasnt a time i was there, even after i was married that you didnt invite me into your home. Marcie, God bless you and keep you. I was at Ibn Sina in Baghdad that Christmas eve Nic and my wife told me the next day. I coudnt imagine what you went through just know the love is always out there for you remember how Ben kept me in line lol He is never forgotten I carry him on my shoudler everyday for the rest of eternity I didnt think he'd mind being immortalized on my shoulder jsut know we are always praying for you"
SSG Chris Blomgren of Ft bragg, NC

"Ben, well as usual, you are constantly in my thoughts lately. Especially with Memorial Day yesterday, and our DC trip coming up this weekend. I can't wait to see the portraits that were painted as a tribute to you for your ultimate sacrifice for our country. It is going to be a very hard and emotional weekend, but this is something that I really need right now!! Just wanted to let you know I Love You, and if I see the big man when I'm in DC I'll shake his hand for you. ;)

Love You, Miss You!!"
Ginger of Bay City, MI/USA

"On this Memorial day I am sitting here thinking of you. Missing you. Going over memories. I just want to honor you today. You gave your all for this country. So bravely and so strong. You made a positive impact on all around you - even in Iraq, by caring for the children of Iraq. I guess I just want to tell you that I feel tremendous respect and gratitude for you. You grew up to be a biG BIG MAN. Thank you soldier. Thank you brother."
Susan Gibson of Smoaks, SC

"It is Memorial Day 2005.
I just wanted to say Thank You.
And, God Bless You.
And, God Bless America."
Kathy Rose of Ankeny, Iowa USA

"Hey Ben, I'm having a Bud Light and thinking of you right now, especially with Memorial Day coming up. We're going to see your portrait in Washington DC next weekend. I miss you so much. I know it will be such a rewarding experience. I love you and miss you with all my heart! Until I see you on the other side..."
missing you

"Ben-
Sometimes I think I'm at peace with losing you, and then something like the upcoming Memorial Day weekend happens and it seems like everything makes me cry. I wish I'd had better closure with your death, but I make do the best I can. I was just telling someone about you the other day and it brought back a lot of bittersweet memories. I'll be thinking of you this weekend, more than usual. I know you're up there, looking down on everyone you care about. Until I see you again."
YKW

"Hey Ben, we're going to see your portrait at the exhibit in Arlington National Cemetery in just a couple weekends. I can't wait, but I know it will be hard too. I miss you bunches. I'm working on a memory book of you right now. I can't wait until it's finished and I have it to flip through whenever I'm missing you. Thanks for watching out for all of us. And don't forget I could really use you right now so let me know you're there! :) Love you and miss you so much."
Nikki of Shepherd

"hello butthead! been thinking of you alot. i will be with your family soon!! I am finally leaving good old tucson and the heat for mo and the 4 seasons. I am excited to have a change in my life. I am glad marcie and little Ben will be there for me. marcie has been so wonderful and i am glad she is helping me out. I was remembering the one christmas you had come down. we were watching south park and the christmas poo. we kept on turning the volume up and lee would come and turn it down. then we closed the door to the middle room of the orchard house and locked it and turned it back up!! Then we would mimic lee's accent. That was fun. We laughed so hard that night with andrea and dad that my stomach hurt so bad!! there was never a dull moment with you around. I miss you sooooo much. And yes, you are still good looking!!!!! Andrea would like you to visit her sometime soon. sdhe needs a good laugh!! Thanks for watching over all of us and expecially you little bitty family!! Love and miss you lots.
Later......."
Dude (LOL) of Tucson, AZ

"Dear Capt.Nienhaus,

I am Biskie's older sister,Andrea. I don't think I will ever be able to thank you or your troop enough for what you did that day. I have thought of all of you often and what it must have been like. I will always keep you and the many other Angles in my prayers. Email me if you like, I would not mind, andilibra@excite.com, thanks once again for writting.

Hey Butthead! I miss you so much, but I will never stop loving you are thinking about funny times. Your wife and son are so amazing to me, and I have learned so much form them. I have not had a dream about you in about half a year, Can you please come and visit. I relly need one of your hugs and really need to hear you laugh. I love you, Ben"
Andrea of Tucson,az

"It's sad how it takes something such as this to make people realize how precious life is. Can't say much, though, cause although we thought we knew, and we did a good job while you were here, I'm guilty to some degree, too. I'm glad we lived life the way we did when you were here, but I have learned and grown some since. You were something else, mister, and everyone will talk about you forever. I found an old video not too long ago, didn't know what it was till I heard your voice - God that was good to hear!! Seems it's been far too long since the last time...

Benjamin was in his first Spelling Bee today, almost 8 and in 2nd grade. He got 3rd place, you would be so proud!! We all are, he is so loved!! He is so you!! And it has hurt to think about that, now it makes me smile, I am so glad for that little boy!! Thanks for everything, we will never forget you!! Loving you, N, A, & F!!"

"Ben, We miss you everyday! Your smile was so contagious...it still brightens our day even though we can't physically see it. You will forever be our hero!"
of Fort Leonard Wood

"Cpt Nienhaus,

Thank you so much for finding this site, and sharing your story. I can't even begin to tell you what it means to me to have heard it. It's a comfort, if you can understand that, to know they haven't been forgotten. After all the time that has passed, it makes you sometimes wonder, and then along comes something like this. Thank you again, so much!! I am so sorry you had to go though something such as this, I can't even imagine what it was like for you all. YOU are my heroes, and will never be forgotten!!"
Marcie Biskie

"It was a road trip to Samarra to visit one of my platoons we were a Unit from the 4th Infantry Division in Tikrit, Alpha Company 104th BN. It was a gray, chilly day, Christmas Eve. We were wore our coats to keep warm on the ride down Highway 1.
At first we thought the delay and vehicle backup on the Samarra bridge was another Iraqi traffic accident, but a few moments latter a soldier came running passed my vehicle yelling for a medevac.

One of my troops grabbed a first aid bag and ran forward. We charged ahead in our vehicles. I'll never forget the scene. You were alive when we arrived, speaking about your family, surrounded by fellow soldiers, many from the 733rd Tranportation Battalion, and 5th Eng BN doing everything they could to keep you alive. The medical helicopter had mechanical problems, so they had to send a second. A old Vietnam vet sergeant kept coming up to me, tears in his eyes saying I had to make get the helicopter faster. That was beyond my power, no matter how many times I asked. 1-66 Armor Battalion heard the call and charged forward with their own troops by road, bringing their Battalion Commander and more importantly a Physicians Assistant. The Bradley's rolled in after about a 30 minute ride, and secured the area, Infantry and Armor soldiers going over the lands around us looking for enemy. The Physicians assistant ran out of an armored vehicle and went right to SGT Biske. It was over 40 minutes to get the bird there, too late for you and your blood loss and injuries.
We thought you had made it, when drove your remaining unit to Ballad, going right to the hospital. We had your fallen comrades, CPT Soelzer and Major Splinter in my vehicles. What was left of your vehicle was loaded on a truck following us. We got to the hospital on post and found out you died. We came together and prayed.
I've kept your family in my thoughts and prayers. For you, CPT Soelzer and Major Splinter on that chilly bright, cloudy Christmas Eve in Iraq. The strangeness of rolling into post, with Christmas music floating in the air. You three will forever be my 3 wise men on Christmas. God bless you and your family.

Respectfully,
CPT Michael Nienhaus
(Formerly) Commander, Alpha Company, 104th BN, Tikrit Iraq
(Currently) Pentagon"
CPT Michael Nienhaus of Washington, DC

"Turned To Gold

I think the saddest day
that someone ever told
when someone tells a wife
that her blue stare turned to gold.
Her head goes up so proudly
while her heart within her dies
she may be chocked with sorrow
but she never cries.
She has waited for days on end
for the war to pass
when she could see her husband again
and hold him close at last.
Now,the news has come
in words so bleak and cold
which tells her what she fears;
Her blue star has turned to gold.

Elbert Cooper"

"I just discovered this poem and wanted to share it with everyone...

We little knew that morning, that God
was going to call your name.
In life we loved you dearly,
In death we do the same.

It broke our hearts to lose you,
you did not go alone;
for part of us went with you,
the day God called you home.

You left us peaceful memories,
your love is still our guide;
and though we cannot see you,
you are always at our side.

Our family chain is broken,
and nothing seems the same;
but as GOD calls us one by one,
The Chain will link again."
Nikki Smith of Shepherd, MI

"Ben, I remember the last time I talked to you face to face. I was going to chow and you were in your hmmwv. We chatted for a few minutes and then I had to go. I will never forget the long talks we had in the guard towers, or the hacky sac tournaments, I will miss it all and cherish it all. I miss you bro, we had alot in common. God Bless you and your family."
Jason Helms of Prescott, MI

"Hey Ben, you're in my thoughts a lot lately!! And I see I'm in yours too. Thanks for the Ozzy this morning. What a perfect way to start out the day!! I want you to know how proud I am of everyone for holding up as strong as they are. Don't ever think for one second you're not always with us in our minds, hearts and souls. I love you Ben!!!!"

"Is it possible to miss you more than we do? I can't imagine. It gets easier to tolerate, you think, then it isn't again. It seems like forever, then it seems like moments. Helpless is a feeling you get used to, although you can't stand to be that way... Life moves on, your only hope is to carry on the good stuff with you, never to be forgotten. A hard lesson to learn, wouldn't want it to be for nothing. Any guesses on what the future holds?? Are we ready for it, either way??
You know we need you, never go too far, okay? To be in your arms, just one more time..."

"Happy Easter!! Thinking of you now, as always! Things have been moving along here, as life will, I guess. As it's sopposed to and all. And you know, cause you're around. Yes, I can feel it sometimes, and we have Ozzy when we begin to doubt it!! Missing you all the time!! Love you so much!!"
Mrs and Jr

"Hi Ben, I was just thinking how amazingly strong Marcie is and I know you have a lot to do with that. Thanks so much for watching over her extra close right now, and putting her at ease and comforting her with all the changes going on. She needs you now more than ever. And if there's anything you can do from up there to put things in perspective for those who aren't accepting or understanding...please do so! :) Thanks for teaching us all to love a little deeper, smile a little bigger, and not take ourselves too seriously! I love you man (but you're not getting my bud light!). :)"
Nikki of Shepherd

"To: Ben and Marcie Biskie
Ben I would like to start off by saying thank you for watching over my husband SPC. Michael Romero while in Iraq. You and Marcie have always been in our prayers. To this day michael talks about all the good times you shared and the memories of him being sick and you always asking him if he was ok. I appreciate everything you and your wife marcie did for our family. Marcie thank you for always being there for me (Christine Romero) when my husband was gone and i was pregnant you kept me strong with frequent phone calls making sure i was ok and coming down to visit me in the hospital. I guess while you were taking care of me, Ben was watching out for michael. Thank you and God Bless. From the Romero family (Michael, Christine, and Baby Michael)"
Christine Romero of Corcoran, CA USA

"Hey Ben, thanks for visiting me in my dream this weekend. I could really feel you there, and words just can't explain how comforting and reassuring that was...just to know that you're still there watching over us and letting us know you're there. I miss you so much, and lately it's all coming around again so fresh and new...where it's like I'm in a little relapse and everything's just so hard to take again. Sometimes I'm at peace with it, and others I just still can't stop trying to figure out why someone as special as you...who really left a positive impression on anyone and everyone you met, why you had to be taken from us. Thank God we have the memories we do. And even though you can't be here with us in body, you'll be with me every day, every minute for the rest of my life. Everything you've taught me in your life and death has truly helped to define who I am. You would walk up and make friends with anyone you met. You didn't care about what other people thought, and you always told everyone like it was. I swear you and Marcie and Benjamin said "I Love You" more than any family I've known! You guys were the epitome of love. There really are days when I do something, and then I think of how happy and grateful I should be, and how you would have handled the same situation, and I'm ashamed of myself. You really taught me to love better and be a more genuine, happy person. I've always known you were special and realized how geniune you were...but it's sad that I didn't truly learn all you had to teach me until you were gone. Thank you for everything. Thank you for being such a bright light in this place that sometimes seems so dark! Thanks for all the laughs and being so damn goofy! Thanks for Benjamin! I love you and miss you!!"
Missing you in Michigan

"Biskie,
What can I say. You are truly one of the warmest souls I can say that I was proud to have served with. From the best times to the worst, you always kept your head up and could make us laugh. Your generosity is something of unbelievable stature no matter how little we had at times, you were always willing to share. I still remember the time when I was sicker than a dog out there and rode in the back of your humvee for a few hours and every chance you got you were joking with me and keeping my spirits up and then you went and poured water on me. Man and tirelessly telling us about your tat every time we asked never got old to hear. The last time I am proud to have hung out with you and your beautiful family was at Rodriguez' house the day before you were scheduled to head back from mid-tour. Even then you were glad to help us load up that ryder truck for Rodrigo while we bar-b-q'd with that pocket knife! I'm glad to have shaken the hand of a true soldier one last time and you will always be remembered. Marcie.. I also want to really thank you for watching out for my wife Christine and helping her out thru her pregnancy, you are truly a one of a kind person and blessings await you."
SPC Michael Romero of Corcoran, CA

"Sgt Biskie,
Man its been awhile...You always made people laugh and put others ahead of yourself.I am a country fan but not of Billy Ray Cyrus but he does have one song that rings true. All gave some and Some gave all. Well brother you did.Even thoe I am no longer in the 5th Engineers I will never forget the day we were told that a few fellow "Fightin Fifth" soldier died.I set here and think about the days we as a whole use to cut up in the Motor Pool and laugh until our guts hurt. Thats the way I will always know you as. The guy that always kept us in good spirits and smiles on our faces. Thank you for all you did for us. God Bless."
Sgt John Hall of 1st Eng Bde Ft Leonard Wood Mo

"Hello Butthead, I can't tell you how much I miss you. It seems lately I can only cry alone and that helps some,but not much. I try to think of what would we be talking about and all I can hear is your laugh. Thank God for that!! I knew you were with me the other day, all I could do was laugh and laugh until I cryed and my stomach hurt. It felt good to do that so thank you. I miss you Ben and love you with all my heart. I will see you again,someday...have the cars ready and some little roads made, we can play all day long. Love NAF"
Andrea of Tucson,AZ

"Just checking in, so you know we're always thinking of you!! Benjamin is looking more and more like you every day, seems like. It's hard. I sure hope I can bring him up to your expectations, as we both wanted him to be. Although, he sure isn't making it easy on me, with your spirit!!
Man, it's still hard to imagine that this is my life, even now. I still have to sit back and try to comprehend what happened, seems like a lifetime ago, and that it happened to someone else. I never knew where I would end up that day, so being here now is strange to me. I know I tried to imagine what life was going to be like without you, and boy was I wrong!! I had no idea. Probably a good thing.

"I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end
the way it all would go
our lives are better left to chance
I could have missed the pain
but I'd of had to miss the Dance"

Live, Laugh, Love,
Now, Always, and Forever!!!
Miss you!!"

"Ben,
Took out some pictures from Iraq today and the first one was of your face staring back at me. I'll never forget you!"

"Happy Birthday Ben!! I bet you felt us all thinking of you on Sunday. I had a cold Bud Light for you just like I said I would. There sure were a lot of great tributes to heros just like yourself during the Super Bowl. They really touched my heart. I'm so glad that you're still here for all of us. We need you around so bad! I think of you constantly and am only comforted by the fact that you are still around and still watching out for Marcie and Benjamin. Thank you so much for that! I love you man!! ;)"
Ginger of Bay City, MI

"Happy Birthday Ben. It was pretty cool watching the "Patriots" win the Super Bowl game on your birthday, and see the red, white, and blue streamers pouring into the stadium after the game. It looked like everyone was celebrating for you...for your birthday. :) I had a cold one for you on Sunday. Thought about you lots. I know you were there with all of us. Thanks for being there, before and even now...and I know for a long time to come. I love and miss you!"
Nikki of Shepherd

"Happy Birthday, Dad!! Benjamin wanted to make sure you heard that! We finally made it to California to meet Nick, and had his baptism on your birthday. How's that for timing?? He is so beautiful, keep watch over him, I know you will anyways!! Everyone has been calling him Benjamin, it's kind of funny!! We still need you, so be sure to stay close. And yes, we are getting old, huh? You first!! ;-} Miss you, and love you-Now, Always, and Forever!!"
Me

"Happy Birthday Ben! You are missed everyday!"
of Ft Wood, MO

"Happy Birthday Butthead!!
Andrea and I had a good day. We had a nice steak dinner and watched part of Lord of the Rings.
I had some drinks for you last night!
I have this picture of you on the wall and you are laughing and every time I look at it I just start laughing! No words can describe how you would just laugh and you have us all rolling and laughing and crying at the same time. Your stomach would hurt so bad but you could only keep laughing! I miss ya so much butthead! I have had signs this weekend that you are around. Thanks for visiting me in my dream last week. I really needed to see you. Hope you had fun just relaxing and watching all of us remeber you. This is your day. (You were getting old dude!!!)
Well, love and miss ya!
Later...."
Butthead

"Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you Happy Birthday Dear Butthead, Happy Birthday to you!! I will sing that all day long on the 6th,just for you. Darlene and I will spend the day together talking about you. We are going to watch a movie and then go out to eat. It should be a fun day so you can visit us anytime you want and let us know you are out and about. I miss you so much and wonder how I have made it without hearing your voice or your laugh. You made it easy to laugh at life and all of it's up's and down's. I loved who I was when you were here. I only hope to become more of that lady and laugh more, I just need your help.So come on Ben , take my hand and help me find my Peter Pan. I love you with all my heart. NAF"
Andrea of Tucson, AZ

"I have so many laugh out loud memories of you. Your impersonations, your laugh, your ears!, you rockin out on your air guitar!, or you playing the saxaphone with the dog howling! So many good memories growing up together. Disneyland, riding the mules thru the Grand Canyon, hiking across Arizona, building forts out behind the house, pathfinders and campouts, swimming at the neighborhood pool and playing with your matchbox cars. I am so glad you were such a big part of my life. In so many ways I miss you. I am so proud of the man you grew up to be. This page is such a tribute to you. Your spirit lives on. Thank you for serving our country."
Susan Gibson of smoaks, SC

"Hi Ben, I just had to write because I have a feeling your wanting to talk to me. I'm sitting at my computer and first "He Get's that From Me" comes on my online radio and I automatically smile and think of you. It's kind of hard not to when you hear that song. It wasn't a huge deal until the next song I heard was "Remember When," one of the songs I played in my wedding video with the pictures of you. I always think of you when I hear that song too. So, here I am, I'm listening, I hear you. I love you and miss you dork. I can't wait to talk to you face to face again."
Nikki of Shepherd

"Hey Ben. I just want you to know that I still think about you a lot. I listen to your songs over and over, and I can't help but laugh at you (vanilla ice????) and also cry. You are still missed greatly."
misty milks of hendersonville, nc

"1/28/05
We didn't know Ben but deeply appreciate what he did for us. He is a true hero and judging by the messages below was one hell-of-a guy! To his loved ones, take comfort in knowing that one day you will embrace your Ben again. We will remember Ben as we raise our flag in the yard. Thanks again Ben and God Bless you and comfort your loved ones. From a very grateful American family."
Jim & Margie Shaw of Pasadena, Maryland

"Hey Ben,

I just had to write and say Thank You for letting me know this morning, in you're 'not so subtle way' that you're still around and watching over us. You made me stop and smile in the midst of the morning madness to get off to work on time...with a million things racing through my head. I get the hint...I need to slow down and take it one day at a time. Thanks for the reminder. You've been on my mind a lot lately. You have another birthday coming up pretty soon. I'll make sure to have a cold one for you in your honor! We love you Ben, and miss you so much!! Your wife and son are doing great. I know that you're watching over them very closely, and I would agree with Marcie, I think you do have your hand in her recent endeavors. Thank you Ben. You are the greatest!!"
Ginger of Bay City, MI

"Ben-
If I had even known you were headed to Iraq, I would've done whatever I had to do to see you one last time. It had been too long since I had seen you, but at least I have memories and pictures. I have lost many friends and loved ones throughout my life, but your loss has by far surpassed the pain and length of grieving. I will always remember our crazy road trip and every time I hear Ozzy or see Braveheart, I think of you. I know that if you'd been here consoling me the day I found out you were gone, you would've put a smile on my face. We will forever be "friend soulmates". Someday I'll be able to see you once again. Until then my friend. I love you man!"
YKW

"Thinking of you today!! Never would I have thought that Ozzy would come to mean so much to me, to all of us, but I guess we shouldn't be surprised that this is how you've been keeping in touch, huh? Thank God for Ozzy!! Although, I haven't been able to listen to "See You On The Other Side", or "My Little Man" yet. They're rough!! But it hasn't been just me, seems you check in on everyone now and then, with Ozzy. Only you!! Keep it up, it's very comforting!! We'll never forget you!! I'm so very happy to have been able to spend such an important part of my life with you. I will always love you, and you will always be a big part of our lives!! Now, Always, and Forever!!"
Me

"Hey Ben,
I've been thinking about you lots lately. I miss you so much. I know I can still talk to you and that you're watching over us from up there. I hope we're at least putting on a good show for you down here. :) I think it'd be a comedy. What's your review? Two thumbs up? :) I love you and we live for your memory now."
Nikki of Shepherd

"hello butthead,
I really miss you! little butthead is so cute. I have been showing is school picture around. You and Marcie have done a great job. Marcie has been so strong. I wounder how we all do it sometimes! I sometimes cry and wonder how a part of my life was just taken from me with out asking first. But then i think of all the time we had with you and i am so lucky!!!! i know you hated it when i cried but you have no way to stop me now!! i have this one! i have been remembering alot of funny and good times i had with you and i just sit here and just laugh. i know there was a different plan and maybe someday i will understand. always know you have aplace in my heart that will be just for you.i miss you and love you so much big brother.
later......"

"Ben and his Memorys will always be un our hearts and he will be missed"
Ben Cerda of Waynesville, mo

"Our final one year anniversary, a year ago today was your service, at Gammon Field. We went there today, Benjamin and I, and sent you notes on balloons. Did you get them?? He was sure you did. We watched till they couldn't be seen anymore. We miss you so much!!
So many do, as I'm sure you know. I don't hear from most, haven't in a long time, but I hope you do. It isn't easy for alot of people, I try to understand. But it's really hard for Benjamin to. He asks about people, every now and then, but what can I say? It's so hard to explain some things to a 7 year old, even a smart one like we have!! I'm sure you are just as proud of him now, as you always were. With good reason, he's a great kid, we did something very right there!! This has been hard for him, I don't think he really knows how to deal with this, but he's doing pretty well. After all, its our blood running through his veins!!
Take care, Man of Mine, and give Riggs a big hug from Mom. Tell Grandma, and everyone else we love you all, and miss you so much, and think of you all the time!! As always, I'm "right here waiting for you".
I Love You, Now, Always, and Forever!!"

"Congratulations, and Happy Anniversary my love!! Life goes on, and so will you, always. A new extention of you was born last night, Nicholas Benjamin Louvet. 10lbs, 21 1/2" long. Named in your memory, due on Christmas Eve. Although they ended up having to force him out, like our Little Man!! They've asked me to be Godmother, and I am so honored to be!! We have vowed that all the boys will know of you. Never to be forgotten!!
And what a record, 9 years today, and not even 30 years old. We started early, but it worked for us!! December 30th will always be special for me, always remembered. We miss you so much, and will always love you so much more!!"
The Mrs.

"Hi "Moose". It has been a while since you've heard that name......
I can't believe that it has been one year already. Sometimes seems like yesterday.
Marcie, we have been friends for forever and there is nothing I want more than to take all of this away for you. I would take it myself. You are so strong and I am so proud of you.
We could not talk for months and I know that I could call you today and it would feel like we haven't missed a beat.
I have visited this site about once or twice a month, unable to write anything. I have never been as strong as you.
I am sitting at my computer, smiling, thinking about our very first trip to Missouri to meet Ben. Then, our second. We had soooo much fun. OH, to go back, just for a moment.....we could even jump on the beds if you wanted to....
I love you Marcie."
Michelle Fairchild of St. Louis, MI

"Sgt Snell,
Thank you so much for your message. I have thought about you all alot since this summer, when I finally found out who you all were. I can't imagine what that was like for you, but just remember you're still here for a reason. Three great men lost their lives that day, but many more didn't. We may never know the why, but it happened, it's up to you to make the most of it. And I'm sure you will. Take care of yourself, and your family, and feel free to write anytime. I would love to hear from you!! missingmygi03@yahoo.com"
Marcie Biskie of Missouri

"Ben,
Hey Butthead. The days have come that I wish would have never come. I have decided that christmas eve is still that but to us it is Buttheads Day! I really miss you. I really do not know how I got through this year with out talking to you. (I still talk with you but do not get to hear your jokes and your laugh.) The day you passed on was a day part of me died with you. You were funny, happy, and let nothing bother you. Andrea and I was not sure how we were going to get though this but we did and I want to say thanks to Adam, Marcie, little Ben, Nikki, Ginger, Cindy and all those who have been there for me. You all have lost a part of your life the same time I did. Ben would be so proud of us. We have kept going for his son, his wife and his memory alive. He will be missed for a long time but soon we will be able to see him once again and see that grin on his face that we all will never forget.
Remember to "Just Keep Swimming." We have made it this far and have some much more to go. Ben, keep watch over you family and all of us. I love and miss you Butthead!
Later,"
Darlene of Arizona

"Ben- One year ago you were taken home...I can't wait to see you again one day- Until then, I pray that you are watching over the ones that were left behind."

"its one year ago today that i was on my way home for R and R we just left camp spiecher bout 10 miles down the road the convoy stopped for me was an unknown reason for about 10 to 20 minutes then we continued down the road .once we crossed the sammarrah bridge that crossed over the euphrates river we stooped again i was the the first to get out of the troop carrier truck then i seen a contorted humvee at first i thought it was one of ours of te 733rd but it wasnt then i seen a soldier with a medic bag to me seemed like he did a third base slide to the soldier that need assistance,then it hit me something had happened and all i could do was pull security and i thought if we had not stopped earlier that could have been us or myself,i want to say god bless you ben you did fight hardthat day was supposed to be a happy day for me but it turned out tto be a sad day.i woke up earlier than usual this morning i really dont know why other than the reason of i know we lost three men today that payed the ultimate sacrifice and for this i will dedicate and make it worth being a father of two in you and the other twos name ben ,this is your day we love you ben,and i want to say i too was part of the 733rd transportation ans would like to say you guys did a good job"
sgt. dwayne snell of windsor pa usa

"Merry Christmas, Sgt. Benjamin W. Biskie Sr. One year ago today, my world fell apart. I lost the love of my life, the father of my son, my soul mate, my best friend, my better half. This past year has shown me just what I'm made of, and just how many wonderful people you provided to support us. Through many downs, and a few ups, we've made it to this most important of anniversaries. I never wanted this day to come. I would have gladly lived this year all over again, dozens of times, just so this day never came. It is so final, so empty. Life has changed so much, for the better finally, I hope. Somehow, we've made it this far. I know there is no going back, but to move forward, you will always be there. Your name will always pass our lips, your face will always grace our picture frames, you love will always fill our hearts. You were a man to be proud of, and by God, we always will be, so very proud of you. We will love you - Now, Always, and Forever!!

I can't find the words I really want to say. Although I've been dreading this day, I knew it was coming, and I have come up empty. No words can accurately explain. I have tried, I so wanted to have the perfect thing written here. I guess I have yet to learn a few things! Like, no matter how much I wish it to be true, I don't always have all the answers. You would think I would have learned something worth sharing over this past year, but sometimes I just wonder how I made it through. But I know that one, it was all of you. All my awesome family, and my amazing friends, old and new. Those who knew me from way back when, those who knew Ben from way back when, and those who never knew him at all. You have been my backbone at times, my strength when I was needing it, my will to go on even when I didn't want to. You will never know just how important you were, and just when I needed you most. Just know that you were there, as always, when needed, and I appreciate you all so much. My life is so full, and Benjamin is so well rounded, because of you all. I couldn't have made it through all this without you. Don't let me fool you, I know I didn't make it easy, and I never said, I never asked for help. I am bullheaded, and like to do things the difficult way, hence Christmas here this year. But at least I don't have the flaw of not thanking those due it. I love you all, so very much!!

On that note, let me just say that my heart will always be military. With it's camo patches, yellow ribbons, red, white and blue flags, and gold stars, my thoughts will always be with those heroes, both home and away, their families, and friends, those living and fallen. Lets never forget any of them, and thank them for everything.

Penny, Mitchell, and Rachel, your families, Soelzer family, my heart and my thoughts are with you. We will never forget!!"
Marcie of Missouri

"Ben,

Well, here it is. A whole year already. It seems weird to me. In a way it seems so much shorter to me than a year. I can remember just like it was yesterday that dreadful day...the phone call that no one wants to receive. And I can only imagine what Marcie went through on that day. But it also seems like much longer than a year since we lost you Ben. We have all hurt so bad and yearned for that awful day to be given back to us. It seems like forever since I last heard your voice on the telephone...or got to chat with you on the Internet. When I think of these things, it feels like you've been taken from us much longer than a year ago. You were and still are such a strong presence in our family Ben. Please know that you will be in our thoughts during these hard times. Watch over Marcie and Benjamin extra close these next few weeks. They will need you far more than any of us ever could. I am keeping your family in my thoughts and prayers as well. I know what a tough time this will be for them. I love you so much Ben and miss you. I am excited for the day we get to meet up again. Give Riggs a big hug and kiss from me. It gives me comfort to know you have him there with you. I will try to be strong in the next few days and remember all of our good times with a smile on my face instead of a tear in my eye. I love you and all you gave for our country."
Ginger of Bay City, MI

"Ben,
It's finally here. I know lots of us have been dreading this week for a while--because it means we'll finally have to face "that day" at th